Besties for life :
Shannon Lim Pei Shan
Adeline Tan Peck Ying
Linda Ang Kiat Ying.

Thankyou for letting me be sure of who my besties are.

Today is a special day to me.
Cynthia and I ended our bestie friendship.
Reasons?
Misunderstanding?
Doubts held in the heart?
But, there is no turning back now too.
No point too.
I think I am being dumb.
She had been good.
& I don't wish to say more here
since here is public.
Goodbye.

HAPPY 3RD MONTH-SARY to the KAZU FAMILY~
Thank you for coming to my office just to send
the kou rou fan for me to eat.
You are the best~
Thank you for all your love and care.
Thank you for all the infinity "I love you"
you told me, just to make me feel secure.
Thank you for always giving in to me.
Thank you for all the things you sacrifice for me.
"I love you" is never enough for me to express how i feel.
I can only confirmly say,"No one will love you more than I do."
Many months to go o~

After being bugged to blog for a long time by bestie & sor zai,

I decided to take some time off to update.



I was thinking that my blog is kind of dead,

so I never think much of updating tho.

I had also been busy with work and the chapalangs~

So, please pardon me if you are a fan of my blog.(which I don't know who.)



I have not been feeling well tho.
My foot still hurts and I can't wear shoes.
I can only wear slippers. :(
And everyday I am wearing the slipper boyf bought for me when
my heels' strap broke.
There is still a moderate big lump on my foot there which
is still painful when touched.
And it affects my nerves.
When I scratch the toes, there is barely much feeling.
As in it is different from the left foot's feeling?
It is like "ma-ma" like that?
Sigh~!
This few months, I seems to be kind of clumsy.
Hitting this and that,
falling down here and there.
Maybe that is because of the SUPER EXCESS FAT in me. :((
TAOYAN~! no matter how I try, it is like that. SIAN!
Find myself really HIDEOUS! YUCKS*
I am starting to hate myself.
From head to toe. :(
Don't even want to camwhore or look too much into the mirror.
pukes*
Whatevver =.=
Between me and boyfriend,
it is good and yeah as loving as before. :)
that is the best boost for me. :)


his dad isn't doing well and everyone are so worried.
I am also very worried about it.
he had been a really nice daddy to me.
he always praise me and approves me to be together with boyf.
I really pray hard that he will be alright.
And i will not doubt it.
I want people to be able to see God through his problem,
and I believe in the name of Jesus. :)
Jiayou, Schirmer Dad! <3


I had been feeling lethargic all these while.
Sleeping around midnight,
waking up early in the morning..
going to a boring place to work.
the only thing i like is the pay at least. =.=
and there are only 6 people working together.
that means less politics.
or maybe the air con lo?
sigh! sian! office job is never my type of job.
not even once. :\
but for my studies and building fund,
i will stay on.
i have alot to pay.
my bills, my boyf's stuffs, dad and mum&building fund.
sigh! no rest.
mon-fri work, sat- service, sun- boyfriend.
I am kinda tired out.
I want to rest but i also want to catch up with my bestie,
best-y and best-tee and boyf.
it is kinda hard, but worth all my time.
i really need to schedule my time properly.
PHEW.
I hope things will turn out well for everyone.
Off I go,
update another time. :)

Happy 2nd month-sary! ♥

THANKS FOR THAT PUNCH.
you fucking idiot.
cb.

When your words are so hurtful that I turn a dead ear.

No matter what I do,
it will never be enough.
No matter how hard I try,
you will never acknowledge it.
To you,
results are the best explanation.
Kill me then.
I really can't be that perfect daughter of yours.
I may not do a lot of housework.
But,
I did pack medicine into the capsules so that you can eat.
But you say you DON'T NEED.
And when I did not do so,
you say I can't understand you.
I do pedicure for you.
You say you DON'T NEED.
And when i did not do it,
you say I don't care about you.

Sorry mum, but it hurts.

I know I always turn a deaf ear.
I just do not know what to do.
I don't want it to affect anymore.
Going to the mirror,
telling the mirror image of me
that "I am pretty, I am worth of goodness." daily is tiring.
And after I do it,
just a sentence from you,
can drop all my confidence,self-worthiness, self-esteem
to drop ZERO.
I am scared.
I admit I am just an insecure girl.

Being with such a suave prince,
someone who is so respectable,
someone who is so nice and good character,
I am disappointed with myself as well.
I feel that I am not worthy of him too.
I feel that I am not good enough too.
But, I am trying.
Trying really hard.
But.... you will never understand.

In your eyes,
I am just that.
I am someone who is unworthy of goodness.
I am someone that even if I want to go and "sell", no one will want.
I am someone who will never be loved.
I am someone who can't last long in relationship,
because I am too fat for them and they will turn their hearts away from me
when they see the world more.

Sorry, it hurts.
Really.

I chose to turn a deaf ear. Sorry. Forgive me.

HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY ❤

It is our one month :D
This one month had been really great.
A month we open up ourselves
and to know each other better..
Clearing of doubts..
Trying out things we never did before.
I can only say that as time goes by,
my love for him is more and more.
Although lesser smses,our hearts are still close.
I call this,
" The Power of chattering hearts "

The two ultimately turning into one.

I am sorry that sometimes I get a lil' jealous,
thinking that someone else can make you happier than I could.
I guess it's my insecurities acting up.
Because I know that I am not the prettiest,
smartest or the most fun and exciting girl.
But I do know that no matter how hard or long you look,

YOU WILL NEVER FIND SOMEBODY THAT
LOVES YOU LIKE I DO. (:


No idea why I am feeling that bad.

Maybe of what my mum said and stumbled me?
Maybe my insecurities are acting up?
Maybe I am just someone who is selfish enough to only want
undivided attention?
*ponders*

HAPPY 300th posts! :D
dedicating this post for SCHIRMER JOEL JONATHAN. (:


























He is my miracle..
He is my light..
He is my guidance..
He is my confidence..
He is my strength..
He is my reason to love..
He is my proudness..
He is my love..
He is my prince..
He is my dearest..
He is my bestfriend..
He is my boyfriend..
He is my listening ear..
He is my sword..
He is my shield..
He is my heart-mender..
He is my blanket..
He is my partner..
He is my precious..

He is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with..
He is the one I want to walk down the altar with..
He is the one I want to help fulfill his dream..
He is the one I want to walk through thick and thin with..
He is the one I want to see again even in heaven..
He is the one I want to hold his hands forever..
He is the one I want to have him to myself forever..
He is the one I want to cling on to till the end..
He is the one I want to go the highways and the byways for..
He is the one I want to give all of my best..
He is the one I want to understand from the tiniest thing..
He is the one I want to entrust myself to..
He is the one I want to make things work no matter how tough it is..
He is the one I want to treasure always..
He is the one I want to support always..
He is the one I want to see him through all his days..

I had gave him my mind..
I had gave him my heart..
I had gave him my soul..
I had gave him my support..
I had gave him all that I could and couldn't..

But to me, it is never enough~

I will make things work, together hand in hand with him.
Even if it is really tough.
Yes, no matter how hard it is.
I will persevere, because of him. (:

Prince,
I want you to know that I will be alright out here.
I know you are really working hard in NS.
I understand you really wish to be there for me all the time.
I am here , baby!
I will always be..
Thank you so much for appearing in my life.
Thank you being the burglar who breaks into my life and steal my heart
yet clumsily left yours in replace of mine.
Your heartbeat beats in mine.
You had been really wonderful.
What more can I ask for?
I know one has his flaw :D
And I have it too!
Didn't you try to accept it too?
So will I!
You had loved me when I am at the ugliest.
And I will become the type of girlfriend whom will match up to yours,
though I know you don't mind it at all. =X
Maybe people call this pride, people call it ego.
But I call it the motivation to keep improving.
I am a perfectionist in disguise! :D
And I am a selective perfectionist! :X
And you are the reason why I want to be~

Lastly,

I love you ♥



Agape,
Winnie-Delphine . F (: