Wednesday, November 11, 2009
11:38 AM
Saturday, October 24, 2009
i am actually speechless about what to say over such a huge
gap of not posting! :X
I have been chionging projects till 5 plus am for consecutive 2 days!
I think I am turning into a crazy panda! /@.@\
hurhur~ i really hope my hardwork will pays off.
FTWDK,
I am actually grounded from going out.
That includes going to church and cell group. :'(
But, i believe everything happens for a reason.
Nothing happens without God's permission(:
Talking about service and cg,
i went for cg last week.
Back to where i wanted to belong to..
The feeling is so strong.
Although there aren't alot of talkings and etc,
i felt ease.
At the very least, the family that i hope i can melt in is safe and sound.
They still lead happy life and cg still goes on well without me (:
The presence was tangible and both Adeline and I could feel it.
I guess the others felt it too ba~
Great everyone is doing well (:
Then i won't need to be bothered about not being there already eh? (:
i will peacefully study and get well.
Perhaps this grounded incident is a chance for me to take a break.
Have a break from worrying.
Have a break from feeling not needed.
Have a break from struggling the emotional attack deep in my heart.
Have a break, have a kit kat~ :D
I admit i am a green apple.
It isn't that i don't like my friends to successful or what, obviously.
It is just that i am just too low self-esteem and confidence.
I am kind of tired.
I want to escape to a world with people just like me.
No more no less.
I cannot deny I hate being a shadow.
Of all the bestfriends i have,
only with best-tee,
I no need to feel so no use.
At least, she is someone who get close to me on her own accord,
rely on me in some way or another.
Of course, i still love my other bestfriends especially BESTIE. :D
She is popular, pretty, nice and lovely.(which is good for her)
ever since that incident,
i started to drift from her.
we used to be distance apart yet heart close.
but now, even when she is just next to me,
the heart is still near,
but i can feel that she is no longer someone who needs me as much like before.
It isn't about whether she also tells me about her problems.
It is about I am no longer that someone significant whom no one can replace.
I used to be the one who knows things about her that people don't,
or should i rephrase, i thought i know everything but in the end,
those people around her know more.
I abhor the feeling when people question me,"She never tell you meh? she is your bestie what i thought?"
It just piss me off.
BUT, it is the PAST already.
i still love her like before.
even though it isn't all about me anymore,
or it never was ALL about me.
But, hmm.... oh yes.. (:
& i am happy for her, seriously.
for what she has got (:
& i thank her for all the things she had done.
She had sacrificed ALOT for me,seriously.
i think i owe her alot and alot.
even her mom.
no word can describe that gratefulness in me.
they gave me a helping hand when i am down,
when i need jobs,
when i am financially broke,
when i am hungry but is penniless,
when my ez link card has no more money and again penniless.
so so so much.
i am really thankful about it. (:
THANKS BESTIE AND BESTIE'S MOM! <3
Sometimes i really feel so
ya, i mean sometimes. *grins*
Just want to write down a quote (:
"When you feel like giving up,
remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
but i am just afraid that the reason behind it
will be the reason i give up.
*back to be an independent girl *
what else?
will anyone wants and will protect me with action and not just empty words on his/her accord?
*wonders*
on a lighter note,
my family relations with each other is getting better (:
#FTWDK = For Those Who Doesn't Know
2:28 PM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
THIS IS FOR MY BESTIE! :D
11:35 PM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
The Mayonnaise Jar
When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand
And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost
And only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.
So...
Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.
'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'
One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'
12:46 AM
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
ENDED.
DON'T WANT TO BE BOTHERED!
i wish i am with bestie now. :'(
7:32 PM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你
让一切都变成不平凡
好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵着不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
ti amo te quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境
一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你
sa la he and i love you
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵着不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
ti amo te quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你沉入梦境
一张眼一清醒
第一个想到又是你
sa la he and i love you
我每天都要爱上你
少一天就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
永远都觉
12:58 AM
Friday, August 21, 2009
But,
why my heart,
consists of fear and insecurities?
is it that he isn't the guy whom Daddy want me to be with?
11:09 PM
Thursday, August 20, 2009
結果分析：[中酸性情人]:人妻情人
詳細分析：<妳的性格診斷書>
妳其 實是一個敏感且富於同理心的「人妻」型女性。無論外表給人的感覺如何，妳其實很體貼、很溫和，即便天性直率，也相當厚道。妳像是一瓶後勁十足的好酒，剛開 始不覺得有甚麼特別，可是會越陳越香，適合有耐心且懂得品味的人來欣賞。妳唯一難搞的地方是固執，自己堅信的事情，妳很難讓步，很多人以為妳好相處，其實 妳有不肯妥協的地方。正義感十足且擁有包容力的妳，在人生的道...路上，當心變成他人私心下的犧牲品。儘管懂得進退與給對方空間，但是別忘了保護自己。
<中酸性愛情分析>
妳 的賢慧與貼心，是一種隱性特質，表面上妳獨立且喜歡主導，不過骨子裡對於愛情的配合與容忍度卻很強，因此再艱辛的愛情妳都能繼續走下去。除非對方主動放 棄，妳不會輕言分手。妳的忠誠度與其他女性相比，也算是比較高的，感性且敏感的妳，其實很需要愛情的肯定，愛情的溫度，更是生命中不可或缺的幸福。正因為 如此，才華洋溢、任性自我以及異性緣好的對象，絕對不會是妳的真命天子，因為妳的自尊心受不了他人自私的折磨。平淡的愛情，才是妳的最大福報。通常妳的愛 情運會有如倒吃甘蔗般，屬於越晚越好的類型。
<魅力診療室>
妳的特質是，無論多麼優秀強勢，只要一談戀愛就會變笨。學著在愛情的世界裡多為自己盤算，會比較快樂。在裝扮上，換些時尚些的裝扮，或是嘗試一些平日沒考慮過的穿著，也能讓人驚艷。
I blogged this here because i think it was so true.
& ya.
just to keep it in my memory blog.
who knows i may lost my memories in future?
1:41 PM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
The story showing that money is not the main thing.
It is love.
Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so let's go their own ways there and then... heartbroken, the guy agreed.
When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all these hard work and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company...
"You never fail until you stop trying." he always told himself. "I must make it in life!"
One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize those were his ex-girlfriend's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore, he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life!
Before the guy can realize, the couple was walking towards a cemetary,and he got out of his car and followed them...and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone... and he saw his precious paper cranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle ... therefore she had chosen to leave him.
She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just wept ...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.
A tragic story that perhaps happens only in the movies. At the end of the day, money is money but love is divine. In our quest for our material wealth, take time to make time for our loved ones. There will be a time when we have only memories to cling to.
Take this weekend to show our "love" to all that are close to us.
9:48 AM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
You MUST watch this!
What do you do when you fall?
10:57 AM
