This is the time i talked with precious about our past.
haha!! XD
i was playing my webcam! =J

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oh my my my!
i am back for blogging.
dearest readers,
did you guys miss me?
i doubt so. haha!
only sandy and precious tagged me.
so i assume it.
haha! but, WHAT?V?R!
I had been chionging to study.
finished with 4 chapters of my accounting!
hohohohoho XD
not bad.
I am taught be Seth!
he is a good teacher, i should say.
haha! i think the price paid is worthy.
i think i have more confidence in clearing my subjects.
*stressed*
but i will strive luhh.
i believe and i confess.
haha! alrights.
done with my blogging.
emotions tackled,
negative-ness casted,
study drive boosted.
jiayou delph delph! ((:

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On the way home, my father's lorry tyre bong chek at highway.
i suppose to go for tuition,
but..too bad.
i canceled it.
no choice.
if not today i would have money. LOL.
nevermind luhh. some things happen for a reason though.
so! yes. waited for like 2hours before someone came?
yes !guess what?my phone and his phone were running out of battery.
and is like he doesn't remember any numbers?
so i quickly switched his sim to my phone
because my phone has slightly more batt left.
so yeah.
By God's grace and mercy,
before my phone totally go flat,
the people came to help.
hoho! XD
so yes. i am pretty tired.
going to orh orh soon =J
nites all.

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these few days i think i have really been out of focus.
i don't know exactly why,
but i was dwelling in sone problems which i should not.
it is just two months and many things happened which made
me feel like ages had gone.
haha. is that exaggerating?
but well,that is how i felt,precisely.
i don't know why i felt so helplesss towards my brother.
i very much want to help but it seems like i am not the
right person who can help.
maybe someone else will offer him better advices that can
enlighten him.
let me be clear here.
i am not being jealous because i know of the definite place
i have in his heart as a mei (:
i just hope that at this point of time when he falls,
when i can't offer him the best solution,
at least someone else can.
i don't wish to see him falling forever.
so i thank God someone went into his life whom
he can share his problems with.
well. the more the merrier.
especially when this person is someone whom
i think can enlighten him XD
so yes,thank God for it.
okayys. done for this matter.
i had been mugging in my studies and giving tuition
at the same time.
library is definitely a great place for me (:
# cheer and chill
*laughs*
i like the place.
it is quiet in the morning when i go.
so refreshed but somehow i am quite tired.
so i will like tip my head before i continue.
haha!
"I can survive through!!" proclaimed delph delph!
加油 to all who are having exams soon too XD
my schoolmates and of course my precious SHANNON.
yeah! go go~ i am on with all of you x3

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想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满魅力带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满魅力带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
你的眼神充满魅力带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

song can be heard here
http://www.1ting.com/player/34/player_300479.html

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Today is a brand new day,a brand new beginning for me once again.
I have set my focus on 2 things.
#God
#studies
i will be mugging at my studies starting from now.
i want to at least clear all my subjects for this semester
though there is alot that i do not even understand.
i really really want to put in my very very effort to achieve what i want.
Jiayou ba,delph(:
stay focused! XD
i am very confused about when to go gym.
Tuesday or Wednesday night?
*faints*
slim down slim down~!
when am i going to slim down~?
hurhur! have faith have faith! heh!
LOVES all who view my blog (:
no more tooooo long post luhh,okayys? hahas!
i will try to spare a though for YOU! hahas =J

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*Updates on my valentine's day*
my "valentines" are kor and precious.
we went to eat at kopitian and went to star gazing.
i couldn't stay for long because parents don't want me to go home late.
but i can really say we talked alot.
although i did not spend quantity time with them,
but i really thinks that we spent quality time together (:
i enjoyed it alot.

**back to today(: **
today i went cell group!
got to know that xuebing is our cellgroup member.
i also get to know one member called ****e**.
he spoke to me alot about his encounters in life,
how he actually do things and indirectly hurt people
and also how others said things to hurt him.
so,i was listening and trying to motivate and encourage him.
then well, he seems to be very okayy.
when he was going off, he asked for my number,
so i gave without hesitating.
well,firstly, i see nothing wrong with him.
maybe i am not sharp or something?
but i really did not know anything.
and then after i gave,
everyone screamed ,"SHHHHHHHHHHITTTTTT!"
and asked,"huh?you gave him your number?oh noooooo!"
i was like *blank*
in my mind i was like,"huh?you all know him???"
come on! it is like i thought he is make up cell and you guys
do not know him cans?
i was like so provoked.
no one told me anything about him or whatever.
no one even bother to like SMS me.
it is like WHAT?!
what is a phone man?sms me and tell me la?!
do already then huh to me.
what the?
i tell you, i was boiling inside.
but i hold it. i think i should just let it go.
sorry, i do not know anything about him as i am not God.
to me,he is just sounding out his problems.
the rest,i seems to have no idea.
perhaps because today my countenance is bad today.
well, i will try to be sharp.

i have made some decisions this time round.
this time round for real.
i am going to consider VOWS too.
i want to stop myself into temptations and lose my focus.
i really thank M.Y to really be so sharp to know about my problems.
and tell me to find back my focus.
i know you are not Jesus.
i will do it this time.
i promise.

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yesterday was a good/bad day?
i don't know how to describe.
good maybe because i unleashed all my sadness
that i put in lots of efforts to bury into my heart
to put the biggest grin to the world wide world,
my brave front was totally teared off.
i know i felt horrible. i know i felt hurt.
but i just want people around me to find me someone
nice to be with (as in i am not those emos ) .
people seeing me emo says common thing like :
"Why?" ; "TSK.emo girl again." ; "jiayou." ;
"cheer la." ; "can you be more mature?" ;
but do you guys really know what i need?
i can say that i turn offs from such things already.
between the lines there is and should be much more meanings to it.
do not underestimate what hurt i met with,
or a tear that just roll down my cheeks.
i know i portrays a strong and cheerful type of girl
in front of all of you.
and now people will start saying,
"you can just be yourself."
ask yourself one question - can i really be myself?
are you sure you won't say things like :
"haiz.she is emo again." ; "sian leh."
i don't want to be outcasted as an emo.
i am tired of getting such responses anymore.
how many should i handle before you guys will stop,
slow down and acknowledge the pain of my life.
i am sick of debating about my hurts.
to think back, why did i have to go and debate
about my sadness when i am sad?
*smiles*
i am sad,you don't acknowledge and says that i am immature
and what, debating start.
you doesn't know behind this computer and angry words typed to you,
a girl is crying. i don't know how people think about me crying though.
i think i want to end about this part here and put a [.] to it.
I spoke to my parents yesterday night when i reached home.
i told them that , "一个家人的安慰可以胜过一千个朋友的鼓励。
for once i pour out all my feelings and no more just debating.
i say that, "爱我不是隐藏在心里就可以的。"
i told them i want them to tell me they love me.
this is what i really need.
my parents' love and understanding.
i admit that it is my parents' love that i waited for and seek for.
maybe all these while,my rebellious action is to get their attention?
this i am not really sure though.
but i know that deep inside me, it is them i really wants.
i want comfort from them. i want my home to not just be a place to sleep.
i want my home to have warmth and comfort.
i even told them who cheated me and how he cheated me.
something that i never thought i will ever tell them.
i even told them where he works and etc.
maybe at last i got the courage to pour my inner self out and be myself.
i think i have really been trying very hard to be a good girl.
to portrays that i am a problem-free girl.
well. it is until yesterday night. it shall not go on.
i don't want my sorrows to go on and neither i want to dwell anymore(:

thank you for seeing my nags(:
but it will be over soon.

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i am immature?
Yes i may be.
but what do you know?
who cares what i need?
who knows what i need?
or should i say,do you even know?
*sighhs*
why must i keep on tolerating to become a shadow?
a shadow to almost everyone.
people always say it is my thinking.
then what leads to my thinking?
lack of love.
lack of care.
what is my love language?
do you guys even know?
*PHYSICAL TOUCH*
AFFECTION!
do i have it?
please. to think really carefully,
i think i am the one who is putting most of the efforts
in loving people. and i need love!
my love bank is 0 now!
i don't dare to put deposit inside anymore.
do you even understand?
no. you only scolds.
say i am immature.
ask when will i ever be mature.
what's more?
i know you care, but this is not the reaction i want or need.
you only know how to ask WHY WHY WHY.
and why can't you just be sensitive to feel it and prompt?
you know i felt really bad mood and you still ask so much.
can you just be sensitive.
no matter how man i portrays,i am still a girl.
a very ordinary girl who needs love and care.
a innocent girl that wants to be pampered and noticed.
a simple girl who just wants to lay in someone's arms
and rest in warmth.
i had been trying to hope that someone will discover all these
and provide all these for me.
i know it is not the right time to be in a relationship,
like mingyao said,"Tracking on water is every tiring."
am i selfish? maybe i am but i did not discover.
i just need it. i need someone to satisfy my needs.
although like precious said,"there is no free lunch."
i feel like dropping dead there.
going to lock my blog.
it doesn't matter whether who comes anyway,
i just need peace.
lock myself in my world,
and heal myself.
i want to pray with my God, someone who does not forsake
or disappoint me. The only man i can totally trust. (':

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I am provoked! *%$#@!@#$%*&%$#@#@%$^%%$^~
alrights, yes! panda owner only treats panda as a younger sister!
da** you man!! go to hell, i says!!
LIAR!! 亏我还想尽办法相信你，你却辜负我！
Once bitten twice shy.
i felt sooo cheated! ARGHHHH!!@#$%^*^%$#@!!!~
you make me cry like litres and litres of tears!
and what?! today lie to me again!
shit you! sharks sharks sharks! >=(
背叛我是你的爱好吗？YOU 你走开！！
SICK of all these. all these heart breakers!
yes, now i announce :
"I OFFICIALLY CAST YOU OUT OF MY LIFE!"
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
*irritated*
who can i turn to?! who?! who?! who?! who?!
ARGHH! it is turning me crazy~!
i think i am totally insane about being cheated truly!
with evidence and truth! okayys, fine!
i am all ON for it! darn you~!
i am so provoked so so provoked! ARGHS!
idiot! liar! luster! cheater! F***er! what's more?!
i can't get anymore worse.
because i am trying to put a watch on my words!
**************************************************
no more mood to speak about other things.

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天啊！！救我！！
I was having a bad fever yesterday.
Oh man! I tell you!!
i really felt like dolphin putting fire!
*faints*
yesterday was my TP.
I failed.
*sigh*
but well..
i am trying to pull myself up again luhh.
Thanks to those who encouraged me.

mingyao :
"Champion is not those who fails but those who never quits."
Jeffrey Kor :
"I believe you are not the only fail.
And not fail ready cannot retake like school exam.
You are not alone.
First time you take the test and you can pass,
you are EXCELLENT.
But if you fail on the first time,
you are just GOOD to try again to touch up to be Excellent :) "
Precious :
"Never mind my dear. Don cry don cry.*Hug hug u!* try again next time."
June :
"Don cry don cry. SAyang sayang..later come here i give you a kiss..(:"
Warren :
"Don be dishearten. Come for your presentation,one more challenge to go."

When i was going to church for pm,
Sandy came to cab me down.. [THANKS SANDY]
after i get down the cab,
i threw out. The taxi driver was lucky!hahas!
immediately you know?!
after that i was feeling real bad..
pretty cold..then i went to vomit again during prayer.
then came back..i went to find kor at chinatown.
he was with wilson and gerald.
so i tried to eat something..
i went to eat nasi lemak.
eat half way i threw out! *faints*
went to toilet like a few times..
i tell you..i am pretty sick!
kor bought me green tea..
then i drink finish,
vomit again! *arghh*
we chatted there at the hawker centre..
then supposingly kor want to pei me go walk walk before i go de,
but i walk half way cannot take it le..
so i told them to go first..i rest at mac.
so..wilson went back and kor and gerald was walking towards bus stop.
but half way when i was going to mac,kor asked,
"you really ok anot?want us to accompany you anot?
we still got plenty of time one..seriously.."
I said :
"never mind la.. is ok..you bring gerald go cut hair luhh.(:"
he think and think and said :
"never mind la,gerald.we accompany her la..i don't want her to
feel lonely because i know how loneliness feels."
i smiled.. and we went into the mac together.
kor bought me milo..
i drank..and vomit AGAIN!
simply can say i vomit whatever i eat and drink!
*ARGHHH*
but i still thank kor for taking care of me(:
thanks kor!!!!! (((((:
then i went for TP feeling really badddd!
you know what?i commit errors i never did before.
like hitting the pole, parking too near the brick blah!
arghhhh*
*speechless about it*
forget it luhh!
delphine delphine delphine delphine delphine!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!! =J
then i went back home after my presentation..
i drop on bed dead.
then i woke up around 8plus at night to bath.
i tell you,my body was like an iron man!!!
then i went to bong bong..
then guess what?!
Precious came to my house to visit me.
she bought me porridge~
minghua asked her to buy panadol for me too.
i tell you,i was very very very very very shocked and touched.
Thanks precious! sorry i did not eat the porridge.
i was vomiting all the way! i promise i will eat it okayys?(:
although my face did not really showed it..but seriously i appreciate it.
Thank you minghua too for caring for me secretly
and asked precious to buy me panadols!
indeed the panadols helped..(:
my fever was slightly subsided (:
but still i vomit and diarrhoea!!!!!!!
hahas! nevermind..

today i went out with my parents..
spending time with them(((:
they are quite good today though!
hahas! thank God for this peaceful day i have!
i bough new slippers for $10.
those real casual type..hahas! not those sandals.
i want PAUL FRANK SLIPPPPPERS!
and yes...i am supposed to do the birthday card..
*yawns* *blinks*
i will complete it with this gift God had given me (:

Once again,
A BIG BIG THANKS TO THOSE WHO ENCOURAGED ME
DURING MY WORST TIME YESTERDAY! ((:
LOVES!! indeed.. Love never fails ((:

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PHEW~ here i am in Jurong library.
i proceeded after prayer meeting at jurong(:
a presence filled prayer meeting indeed.
i love going for early prayer meetings.
hahs :D
i am currently at jurong library.
*yawns*
i am going to diet diet diet!!
ARGHH~
no more fried stuffs (:
gosh*
i am going to do it do it~
someone discipline me and accompany me leh!
motivation motivation!!!!
ARGHHH~
TSK!

currently precious and dumbass are talking
about our retarded actions we did in secondary school.
laughing away all the way.
hahs!
so funnny.
*faints*

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Just searching through my documents,
i saw this thing i wanted to update to blog about
Asia Conference.So gonna copy and paste!
hahaha!
p.s sorry for such a long post eh?(:

Here it goes, my after Asia Conference's feelings:

WOOHOO!

I am back (:

All these days I had been realll busy.

The reason is *Asia Conference*.

No doubt that it is good!

Not just good,

but BEST !

I believe those who attended Asia Conference had been blessed greatly.

Asia Conference is about churches from whole Asia coming together to pray, electives such as [Building a Healthy Self-esteem; Personal grooming; Effective counseling and more]

2008 Asia Conference,

City Harvest Church, my church, is hosting it!

Can you believe it?

Why not the famous Thomson Newton church?

Why is it City Harvest Church? (:

I have always believed it is because of good pastor like Pastor Kong, Pastor Aries, Pastor Zhuang, Pastor Derek, Pastor Tan, Pastor Meng and the CHC staffs looking after the church.

Is the seed they sow and now they are reaping fruits from it.

And I proudly say here,

City Harvest had been an excellent host!

The music was very good, the Pastor preaching is very good, the food is very good, the electives are very good, the service provided are very good!

What's more to "hiam"?

Its super GOOD okays?

Both my feet’s' thumbs and my hands' thumbs UP!

Not only I, a City Harvester say that, but the preachers who came said that, the overseas delegates said that!

There is more than 24thousand of people attending the Asia Conference 2008, coming from 72 different regions!

For your information, Asia only has less than 40 regions, meaning the rest can come from the Middle East and blah blah!

Pastor Phil Pringle said, "I have never attended a conference that can have 20thousand people attending it on the first day."

I believe God is going to touch Asia in a mighty way!

Revelations upon revelations are spoken.

Pastors prophecies that our Pastor, Pastor Kong, is the one who will shake the Asia. Amen!

I believe! (:

In the so many sessions in the conference, I heard a familiar quote spoken.

"Walk by faith and not by sight."

This is what I first learnt from my cell group leader, Zhang Ming Yao.

He was the one who taught me that.

The first one.

I had been meditating on this phrase that was quoted.

I told myself, "I am from S33, under Ming Yao; I need to have the DNA of his! (:"

I know his matter works.

Seriously, thought I do agree you need to plan too lahhs~

But seriously, this time when I had been walking by faith, miracles upon miracles happen.

Alot of things I feared was cast out.

Darryl, Meng Chin, Marlin & Ming Yao did house visitations for me.

So much more...

Things I never thought will happen had happened!

So you see?

I may have met with many many problems, but one person whom I will hold on for, is Jesus my love.

He is worth all my life, or should I say, He is my life.

He is also my love, my daddy and my God.

He is much more than a religion, He is love.

He showed me love I never felt before, fill my emptiness that was always there and fill me with love.

Benny Hinn’s words touched my heart and struck me hard.

He asked, “Did any of your God tells you He loves you?”

The non-Christian answered, “No.”

He said, “No right? But I tell you, I don’t know about other God, but my God says He loves me. If your God did say that to you, you may go.”

The person wept and asked for Benny Hinn to pray for salvation for him.

Hmmm.

Indeed no other gods told me they love me…

Not even one!

I am grateful and fulfilled that I had chosen to go back to Him after backsliding during Sec1.

I learned alot of things during service, cell group and prayer meeting.

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Everytime when i feel that i am the one who
is giving more than others and always
being the one who takes the initiative to speak to others,
i always tell myself this :

I have shown you in every way by laboring like this,
that you must support the weak.
And remembering the words of the Lord Jesus,
that He said, 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.'
Acts 20:35

today i went for service as usual(:
but this time round with minghua.
he is very sick luhh.
first time seeing such a sick minghua..
*faints*
he got a bad sore throat and lost his voice.
i prayed for him at level 4~
by faith i believe he will be healed pretty soon by tuesday!
*Power of faith*
God is Jehovah Rapha!
He can heal minghua,definitely. (:
i trust and i confess :
"Ming Hua will be healed by Tuesday."
I leave everything to God(:
I will pray for them..
I want to commit to pray and devote to bible reading!
yes action!!!
NOT JUST SAY SAY!
is a commitment.
i want to pray for water baptism too.
but i need to settle down some things first.
GO GO DEVIL!
Nothing is impossible for God(:

Yes i want to speak the words that suit my royal status.
Delph, put a watch in your words!
Be sensitive~You can slim down de!
HOHOHOHO! i must have faith and determination that i can do it.
Thanks M.Y for your words at my tagboard.

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Today went to do project after school at andy's & andri's house.

Good things that happened :

• Andy keeps asking me whether i am hungry a not.

then he says he cook for me and he went forward to
cook dry maggie noodles for me. Thanks(:

• Warren bought me chicken wings because i say i don't wan to eat.

Well.. it started not bad luhh.
they do cares for me luhh.
i am very infuriated today with my parents.
sighs! too much to say..
so i don't wish to elaborate.
God teaches me to honour my parents.
so i am trying to do that.
Liang pei-ed me to go eat..
actually is he wants to eat.
hahas! go i went because i am moody..
wanna get a drink to chill.
but in the end a double cinnamon cappuccino
will cost me two bucks.
so i gave up.went to eat nasi padang instead.
so we were chatting in a certain way luhh.
Well..then i pei-ed him go smoke..
whole day i was asking around how is smoking
and i asked if i should pick up smoking,.
i think that i due to the stress and emotions i have..
but God's love is greater..
so i chose to not be stupid and silly and impulsive
over such things..
so,forget it luhh.
today i left with no money and ez link card.
no one to call for help..
no one to throw my feelings.
so sad that someone left me on the lurch..
but well..because she is prettier and seems like lovable
more than me..
so ya..blame no one..but myself for this size and shape.
pretty sian about it.
encounter with best friend also like that.
now this friend also like that.
and i came up with one conclusion which is:
fat people can't get love and affection like other babes have.
so recommendation is:
slim down!
gosh*
it is so tough la!i am dying about it!!
enough! (((((((:
nites to delph and others!

A Friend's Love says:
If you ever need anything,
I'll be there.
True Love says:
You'll never need anything;
I'll be there.

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Hoho.. this post beginning is for my friend, count dracula.
Today he questioned me whether how you know you are in love.
So here are some answers.

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.
At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh,
your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival,
your phone is quiet.
You are desperately waiting for the call!
At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail fromthat special someone than other many long e-mails,
you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the
messages in your answering machine because of one message
from that special someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would
not hesitate to think of that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.

HER COME THE INTERESTING PART.HEHE!
While you are reading what i wrote
if someone appears in your mind,
then you are in love with that person.
HAHA!
SO,Count Dracula..
are you in love? =D

Love is like dew that falls on both
nettles and lilies.

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1. You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but very boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your significant other's house, short or long?

-short,i want to see him faster,of course!

2. On the way you see two rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend of any one color or two color combination. What number of white and/or red do you pick?

-10/10 be fair la.

3. You finally get to their house. A family member answers the door. You can have the family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do?

-of course i go do it lo! my boyfriend leh!

4. You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

-bed..so romantic..hehe!i would love him to see it immediately he comes in!

5. Later, it's time for bed. You and your boy/girlfriend sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up, you go into his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, do you prefer him/her to be awake or asleep?

-asleep luhh.so i can see his sleeping style..hahas!and snap some pictures!

6. Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain or more interesting road?

-more interesting road of course.have more time to waste!hahaha!

Meaning of it :

1. The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.

You chose the short road--you fall in love quickly and easily. You chose the long road--you take your time and do not fall in love easily.

2. The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return.

3. This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems

You like to get the person yourself--you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately. You asked the family member to get your significant other--you
like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves.

4. The placement of the roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend.

You want to place the roses on the bed--you like to see him/her a lot. You want to place the roses by the windowsill--you are alright with not seeing him/her much.

5. This represents your attitude towards his/her personality.

You prefer the person to be asleep--you love the person as the way s/he is. You prefer the person to be awake--you expect the person to change for you.

6. The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone.

You chose the longer road--you will tend to stay in love for a long time. You chose the short road--you fall out of love easily.

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Today i went for cell group as usual..
but this time round is different from 2weeks before...
the presence was much stronger.
((:
Today i learnt something that indeed can
bring me to the next level.
today's praise is funny!
haha~
"Great is our God *hey hey hey*"
i believe the whole cell group enjoyed today's praise
the MOST.
hahas!it is so funny..
but it really did bring up our moods and spirit(:

" Many people will walk in and out of your life, "
but only true friends leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use your heart.
Anger is only one letter short of danger.
If someone betrays you once, it is his fault;
if he betrays you twice, it is your fault.
Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events;
small minds discuss people. He who loses money, loses much;
he who loses a friend, loses much more; he who loses faith, loses all.
Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
but beautiful old people are works of art.
Learn from the mistakes of others.
You can’t live long enough to make them all yourself.
Friends, you and me. . . you brought another friend. . .
and then there were three. . .
we started our group. . .
our circle of friends. . .
and like that circle. . .
there is no beginning or end. . .
yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.
That is why they call it the present.. (:

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For this post, i would like to write messages to different people :

Precious :
Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile,
so when you are lonely remember it's true..
somebody somewhere is thinking of you and that is me..
many a time, i feel bad that i can't be there for you..
it is a type of feeling that "never mind la,go do your own stuffs."
cannot erase..
there is so much things i want to do with you.
but time after time,
our timing just don't click..
i want to let you know that i really care about
every single hurt that is in your heart ;
every single fear you have ;
every single desire you have ;
every single thing that can makes you smile.
to be frank,
i am pretty upset when i see
"where are my good friends?"
"Jus 1 good fren is enough to replace a dozen of normal friends."
not because i feel you are wrong.
but because i failed to be your good friend.
everytime we call each other best of friends,
but what am i really to you?
i am upset that i can't give you all that you need
and yet i claim i am your best friend
and say things like "i will be there for you."
all that i could do is to buy you gummies..
i know that is not what you need.
sometimes the most painful thing is that
i know you are sad yet i can't seem to help.
sorry..
and thank you for helping me to the fullest
when problems come into my life.
friendship->relationship->money->presentation
all these..
without you,i will not be able to live until now.
without you,i will not be who i am now.
without you,my life could i have been taken away
for i couldn't take the stress on my own.
thankyou for trying to be there.
for your other half i have this for you :
Someday someone might come into your life
and love you the way you've always wanted.
If your someday was yesterday, learn.
If your someday is tomorrow, hope.
If your someday is today, cherish.
all the best,babe~


Stonefish :
There's this place in me where your finger tips still rest...
your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo...
It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me..
Although we have broken up for quite long already,
I have not forgotten you cleanly yet.
but i am letting go, even if it hurts,
I always tell myself,
"Letting go doesn't mean i have to let go of everything.
I just have to let go of you in person
and my feelings for you
but the memories will always be there
whether it's good or bad.
because everytime i remember those memories,
it will always put a smile into my heart.
and be glad that once in my life,
you tried to make me happy and put colours into your life
even if it's just for a while."
I never forget how you bluff for my hand to hold,
when i say i like to be held.
the times you bought me liang cha when i have sore throat.
the times you bring me to your gan-ma workplace
and tell her i am your girlfriend..
the times we quarrelled.
and you saw me crying,
you wiped my tears,pat my head and kissed me.
all these little little things you try to do will not
be buried by the fact we broke up.
thanks for being real to me.
and bring me to eat..
i will say..
you are my motivation to slim down that time..
my direction..my goal..my focus..
and indeed during that period of time,
i did slim down..
your true smiles and affirmations are my encouragements.
Thankyou for coming into my life..
Memory is a golden chain that
binds us together until we meet again.





Panda Owner :
Now I believe it when people say love is blind...
because I must have been blind to love a person like you.
The moment I looked in your eyes I fell in love.
Every time I look I fall in love again.
I've looked so many times,
and have gathered so much love.
I have so much to carry with me that I don't know what to do!
The way you look at me is like as if i am the only thing you can see.
you can read my love language just like that.
yes i admit i fell in love with you..
because you unlocked my fear..
you gave me the security..
but no.
it is not what i think.
like is different from love.
i love you,
but,
you like me.
it is different.
when i am in love with you,
your eyes on me,
your hugs,
your kisses,
then i get to know,
you did it to me just as a "close friend".
i don't know about you,
but it is weird..
it pains my heart..
and i can't deny i was afraid..
i was jealous when you accompany your female friend
to wait for bus 157 despite knowing i am waiting for you..
and i waited for you like 45 mins excluding the time i came earlier?
just because her 157 was not here yet?
sorry i am a green apple.
i wrote our story on the blog,
majority tells me you are lusting over me..
i was in a dilemma..
in my mind i was thinking should i judge you this way..
i put a test between us secretly.
for 1 week plus i did not sms you..
actually i was waiting for you to sms me..
but to no avail..
does this means that i am just a pant you want to wear
then hoax,don't want to wear then leave aside?
indeed i am drawn to the side that you are just lusting over me.
if you can hug and kiss me because i am your close friend,
you could have do that to other girls.
and i apologise,
i don't have this type of big capacity to accept.
take care ((:
one day you will seek love and be sorry that you threw mine away.




penguin :
Love is hard work and hard work sometimes hurts!
Sorry to have hurt you so much..
Thank you for doing so much for me all these while..
we have known for like yearrrs?
i will never forget how we know each other..
jumping into band world,
feeling awkward that no one answers,
i jumped out.
and then come in again..
and what?
on bus 99 we met again..
everything looks like it seems like we are fated
to be together and meant for each other..
Thanks you for your love..
i think up till a few months ago,
you are the only one who loves me wholeheartedly
although in the middle some things happened..
you are the only guy that i felt secured truly with..
i know you truly loves me and i don't have to be
afraid you are unreal towards me.
pardon me for not accepting me..
the reason i don't want to anyhow go into the
relationship is because you are too good,
i can't bear to walk into a relationship without
really loving you wholeheartedly..
i don't want to hurt you any further.
i don't want to be unfaithful and in the end
becoming a murderer.
thanks for loving me despite
all the attitude i gave you..
all the problems i gave you..
all the difficulties i gave you..
all the worries i gave you..
you are a great man i can say with a 100% chop.
i know you feel helpless and useless because
everytime the girl you like,
you are unable to get her..
but i believe this one thing:
In Greek Myth,
in the past, men and women is one entity.
but one day the God fears that humans will be too strong
and one day may take over the Gods,
they separate men and women..
from that day onwards,
men and women seeks for their halves to make them whole.
So i am sure will find your other half(:
Don't give up.
as you begin to change..
and plug your heart to God,
He will pour abundance to you.

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