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QUEEN'S SPEECH T H E . V E R D I C T
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you say that the $100 that time is nothing. because it is very little. but it means alot to me. Out of the little you have, you still gave me. Thankyou so much, really! LOVE YOU,BOYF ♥ . 0 comment[s] | back to topboyf, jiayou inside camp o!i will work hard together with you. :) 0 comment[s] | back to topSCREEEEEEEAAAMMMM!I hope it helps. i.miss.you 0 comment[s] | back to topI love my boyf. (:he makes me feel like the Earth is made of love shape. 0 comment[s] | back to topThe cramps are really not tolerable.I can hardly walk. Like seriously... jialat. collapsed on the floor when i got down on the bed because it is really painful. not going for work today. can't move much as well. :( 0 comment[s] | back to topDown down down down down....Totally madness. I had a bad day. I had a bad stomach pain. To make things worse, I had stomach cramps. It is totally >,< The upper and lower part of the stomach is in pain. I still have to work. When I see the food there, I feel like puking. I can already feel my body shaking when I am working. Running up and down, moving here and there, standing up and down.. To make things WORST, my mind aren't working well. It is having wild thoughts. Thoughts that I should not have. A mindset that I should not have. Stomach pain + Stomach cramps + Wild thoughts = HELL Not only my physical body is upset, even my heart is upset. Had my whole day feeling disturbed and annoyed. I am kinda tired. I did not have a good sleep yesterday as well. I really had a bad day! :/ As the status goes higher, expectations will automatically go higher. And when it does not match the expectations, people are easily provoked and disappointed. Are you disappointed in me? :( Why am I so affected? I shouldn't be. Perhaps it is my immature thinking. Maybe I didn't appear to be what you see me to be. 0 comment[s] | back to topI AM OFFICIALLY ATTACHED ♥I am attached to SCHIRMER JOEL JONATHAN~! He is my prince~! 0 comment[s] | back to topTake All of me for one of yours.I think this is a kinda sentimental sentence which was randomly shot into my mind. Have you ever felt like you want to give away all of yours just for one of the other's? Like wanting to give all of yours to God for one of His? I feel it is very true. I want to give all of mine to Him to really seek His forgiveness, His grace, His love, His touch & His presence. (: Even in the terms of relationship. You want to give all of yourself to get him/her? Sometimes even going through the highways and the byways. You never knew you could do so much. Because of love, you are able to cross every barrier. Because of love, you are willing to take a step forward. Because of love, you will swim the ocean and cross the mountain. This is how power love can be. No matter how painful it takes, you are willing to take it up. just for love. It is amazing, isn't it? :D 0 comment[s] | back to topMy kor, Jeffrey, used 3 things to describe me.The soap bar = delphine's sms that wash away the unhappiness. wok = delphine's face that you see and then will be happy. toilet bowl = delphine's sms that flush away the unhappiness. Seriously, I think it is really creative and sweet~ He is always full of funny ideas, JUST LIKE ME! 有其哥必有其妹! :D Thankyou so much, KOR! :D Another message I got was from Kyria Siah. She sent me this message, "Hello dear! Just wanna say that I appreciate your daily night messages! (: although we don't really meet up these days but you're still a friend that I hold dearly too! Stay happy and have a good night rest! Let's catch up some time soon! *loves*" I think it is really sweet of her to send me this message. I felt really warm by it. Although many people do not reply to my good night messages, I think it is absolutely alright. The purpose of me sending is to help the person I sent to, to end their night well. Just when your day was really hectic, someone who should be there wasn't, just want to tell you that you aren't forgotten! I hope by sending good night messages to you, you will feel more loved! (: I think I had been a blissful girl, knowing this boy which i called,"prince". In his eyes, I am always so wonderful. He always believes in me in whatever I do. He trusts me totally. He is just different. So different that it feels like he jumped out from the book of fairytales. I always question myself, "How can such a guy ever appear on Earth?" Or perhaps when he appears, he will only belong to those that are pretty, which I am absolutely not. I think he is really a gift from above to me. The most important thing is that, we have chattering hearts. (: There are a lot of things we do not have to say it, yet our hearts can sense it and interpret it. (: I had been really happy and gained lots of confidence after being with him (: Thankyou, PRINCE! (: 0 comment[s] | back to topYES! I did it! :DI have changed my blogskin! Like........ FINALLY~ WOOhoooo! I love this skin alot. The picture may seems a lil' emo like as if someone has left me. BUT, that's not the case. (: I am very happy and satisfied already! :D I had a good prince! :D I went for interview today. It is admin work at TT Bisso Salvage Asia Pte Ltd. I really want to try this out man! I think it can helps to gain experience. This company do shipping and stuffs like that. I will be totally NEW in this. But, I am willing to work hard! I am willing to learn! I really am! :D Jiayou, MASHMALLOW-POTATO.Q! <3 prince, I do miss you (: 0 comment[s] | back to top其实很多男孩子都不知道， 女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。 实很多男孩子都不知道， 女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。 其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨， 也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。 你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。 你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她， 在别人面前她都是淑女。 你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣， 让她即使生气也不会超过2天。 而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。 于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。 于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。 于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。 要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。 因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。 因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气； 而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。 你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。 你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。 她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人， 因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。 她会很矜持， 她会很骄傲， 她会很冷淡， 她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。 你了解女孩吗? 请你张开你的耳朵， 也请你打开你的心， 去听她心里真正的呼唤， 而不是她嘴里的口是心非。 她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候， 你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。 如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她； 如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她； 如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。 如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。 在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。 可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错； 爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。 你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。 不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。 你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。 不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让， 更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。 要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。 越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害—— 无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。 请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。 她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。 请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。 也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的， 只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。 那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。 也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。 她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。 0 comment[s] | back to topRECUPERATED <30 comment[s] | back to topI STUMBLED TOTALLY,BROKE DOWN AND CRY. Delphine, It's okay, tomorrow is gonna be alright when you wake up. (': 0 comment[s] | back to topI am a lil' tired.I am a lil' moody. I am a lil' wavered. I am a lil' down. I think I will be alright. I think it will just be today. Did I really think too much? I just don't know how to face it alone. I don't know how to say it. I want it to be in the light. I want blessings. I want to prove that we can make it. I want. I don't want to let go. I don't want to be forced to make a tough decision. I don't want to feel so terrified. I don't want to make either party feel bad about me(again). How I wish I can be a princess, so that I can match up to prince. How I wish I am strong in spirit, so that I can lead him(at least). How I wish and wish. But it all seems so far. Am I being a lil' emo here? I guess I am. I just couldn't control. I can't seems to smile today. My eyes are droopy. My smile has turned to a frown. I don't know why. I just want to be stress-free. That only happens when I am with you. I don't want to care about other things. I think I am really selfish. REALLY SELFISH. sigh! sorry friends, I just want to rant. =X GOOD NEWS IS................ CITY HARVEST FINALLY FOUND A PLACE FOR OUR CHURCH! 12,000 seaters! WOOHOO~! :D 0 comment[s] | back to topTo have you is the greatest bliss ♥0 comment[s] | back to topI REALLY HAD A GREAT TIME WITH YOU0 comment[s] | back to topMy choice and FINALE.
I FINALLY MADE A CHOICE.I want this man, ONG SHUI SHI, OUT OF MY LIFE. This is no longer just a talk or a try. BUT, i am going to do it, in a process of doing it, and soon it will come to pass. And i mean it. It really will. As soon as by Thursday. Looking back at the days when I missed him, dated with him, loved him, tolerated.. I wonder how I came this far. Hershey pie and coke light, all stucked in my mind. Memories I used to hold dearly in my heart. Days when I sleep wetting my pillow. Time when I try to do the best to please you. I was wrong, utterly wrong. Or should I say, I was silly. Knowing you love chip and dale, I saved up all the little I had just to buy the chip and dale puzzle for you. Put it together on my own, pasted it on a big puzzle frame, writing all the birthday messages to you, writing my blessings to you. And all that you could respond was, "I never wanted it from you even when we were dating." I asked again,"You really don't want right?" You said,"Of course don't want la!When you wanted to give to me, when did i ever seems like i want it?" That's it. That was the last time I hand my 真心 to you. And it ruined it. Maybe not my real HEART, but that piece i made for you, every stroke was my blessing and love. But, you can just "throw" it with words like that. That's enough. really. you said you never needed anything from me, and if you want something, you will use your own $$$ to buy it and wanted me to GET THIS CLEAR. Yes, I got this clear. But you get this clear too. This piece is not made for you because you WANTED it. It was done because I wanted to do something for you, wanted to melt that ice heart of yours. Want to help mend the broken pieces of your heart back. Want to erase that haunting experience you had in your birthday with your ex. BUT, ALL YOU COULD SEE, is only about YOU,YOUR thinking. You can only judge from YOUR perspective. Feel from YOUR own senses. See from YOUR own eyes. You never knew how self-centered you were. But there I was, never giving up. Giving you as much as I could. I can only say, I gave you all that I can ever hold. Every single thing. All that I had. All i wanted was you to lay your eyes on me for once. But, you will never. in the relationship of 2years plus. You never once had your eyes laid on me. It was only when your "need" is met. Sacrifice upon sacrifice. And all you can ever say, was all your "don't want"(s) and your "no"(s) and "none of my business"(s). All you can ever care is yourself. Your heart, your pride, your ego, your feelings and your past wounds. And all i do is useless to you. It meant nothing to you, from the start till the end. (: guess it's all over now. it already time to let you move out of my heart. Maybe it was only the memories that held me back. I was trapped in the memories, in the true heart i gave that was stepped on. Perhaps, I have long long ago no longer love you? i don't know. But whatever it is, you are out of life. for now and ever. I will put guards all around my heart just to look out for you and ban you from entering. No more hershey pies and coke light because of YOU. It will only be my likes and my wants. I have chose to move on. Since you have chosen to "throw" it away, The puzzle will be burnt in front of prince. I want nothing to do with you again. Thank you. (: 0 comment[s] | back to topAccording to you 0 comment[s] | back to topEver since he stepped into my life,my life is never the same. Seed starts to have roots, leaves start to grow, and flowers start to bloom. No "i love you" is said, but we can sense it in our hearts. It is really like some kind of telepathy? In Chinese they call it,"心电感应". it is whereby, there isn't a need to speak in words. There is some kind of weird affirmation deep down. And you know what? I have found the one who suit the "he" in song of According to you. One of the sweetest thing i ever seen someone posting online about me is from him, "I met an Angel that wished me good night and gave me good dreams, took away my worry, and single handedly brought me to heaven…" 0 comment[s] | back to topSomeone is reading my blog.And really through all my posts. He is prince (: He uh he, always say things that make my heart skips a beat. It is just like having a Lamborghini racing in my heart. HEH. You will never understand. MY HEART JUST LITERALLY RACED!! 0 comment[s] | back to top
Serious? I dare not think.
I WON'T KILL lea.. TSK. You are 32% controlling/perfectionist! You are a very easy person to know. You usually go with the flow, and are really pretty ordinary. You trust other people to do a good job, and you don't have to be in control of everything. You don't sweat the small stuff, and you aren't very judgemental towards other people. OKOK only lo. indeed a very easy person to know. (: I am not ordinary! I AM EXTRAORDINARY!
WOW! musician! That was one of my dream when i was in secondary school. but i think it is drifting further and further lo.
KAOS. indeed my colour is PINK. BUT, i am not flirtatious and guys DON'T adore me!
YES! THIS SURVEY IS PERFECT. SO ME. :DD 0 comment[s] | back to topCreativity
Creativity : Not fear but FAITH.This was just what I told Adeline on the way to service yesterday. And Pastor Tan spoke about it. heh heh :p I was saying that actually everyone has their creativity inside them. Just don't be so minded by what people are going to say about it. Sometimes people are just too self-conscious. They are afraid of what people will comment. Personally, I too have many encounters of people finding my ideas, -lame -joke -not for used -shameful -embarrassed -not good and etc.. But, I never once give up. I really believe that creativity is built in me. I believe there will be people are there who feels that my creativity is worth something. I feel that people should be bolder to share their thoughts. Sometimes because you are too scared, you may just think that you have totally ZERO creativity, seriously, impossible. There sure bound to be some. it is just how much. (: SO, DUDES AND BABES OUTTA THERE, UNLEASH THE CREATIVITY IN YOU :DD 0 comment[s] | back to topAngel
AngelThis name was given by prince to me (: I held it really close to my heart. It is really something that kept me smiling. The moment I think I could be of a help in his life, I really felt like an angel. Maybe to many people, this word,"Angel", when people called upon you, you will just take it as a joke and forget about it. But, to me, it is really something that warms my heart. You never know how a wonderful-sincere word said to you can change your day and even life. I really appreciate all these days of contact with him. (: He always say I made his day. I should say we lifted each other's day eh?(: Because your words are seriously WORDS OF AFFIRMATION! YOU JUST MAKE MY DAY and END MY DAY well YESTERDAY! Thanks so much eh! 0 comment[s] | back to top
This is a quiz I went to Prince's blog and found it quite interesting. So i went to do it. So this is my result! HAHA :D actually it is quite true. *LOL* Fun loving, energetic and cheerful! Isn't it SO TRUE? HAHAHA -laughs- Adrenaline rushes and going out at night! YES! I love to go and play and be out in the night with friends! I will stay strong though (: 0 comment[s] | back to topThe BBQ
BBQ @ Kovan with the greatest people!s33 + N234 + all the friends~ It is really a great BBQ and a successful ones. I manage to talk to EVERYBODY! like sooo soo WOOHOO?! HAHAHA :D Chee long sent me home as promised! YAY :D sooo happy! how happy will it be to make a new friend who keeps his promise and really put it into action! VERY MUCH APPRECIATED! (: 0 comment[s] | back to topComparisons and naiveness
Why are there always so many comparisons?My mother will always compare me with others. It really hurts especially she compare me with my best friend(s). Compare my body shape, compare my studies, compare my status, compare the amount of pay I have, compare my walking style, compare my study level, compare compare compare! Not just my family, even the new people I met. They will compare either. Compare me with the girl friends I am with. Compare body shape, compare openness, compare talking style, compare attitude, compare amount of smiles, compare how one laugh, compare how this and that. Not just family and friends, even teachers compare. Compare results, compare study attitude, compare your facial expression, compare how you write the words, compare how you sit, compare your life span of attention, compare and compare and compare. I really detest comparison. It only makes me feel condemned. Whenever I try to build my self confidence and self esteem, comparisons will never fail to pull me down. I think the reality will not be able to accept people who are real in ALL their thinking and emotions. And I find it very contradicting. People claimed that they hate the masks people put on their faces and fake their emotions. However, the fact is that they themselves can't accept the truth that people reveal & the true emotions that people show. It just mark how selfish a person can be. I think I am very naive. The naiveness refers to my thinking that there is no truly bad person in the world & everyone can be trusted. How naive I can be? This naive thinking was held close in my heart. That is because I feel that everybody have a good and a bad side. So no one will be totally bad. I feel that everyone should have the chance to be trusted even if he/she once cheated on others before. I do not know why, but deep in my heart, I feel that every person who cheated on others will really hope that there will be that 1 person to believe in them. I really don't want to judge them according to what they ever done in their past. I feel that they won't want people to look down on them and compare them with people who have clean records. I really don't like to be compared with people. I do not want to lose that love in me and turn into a selfish person. I don't want, really. ** I am just writing my feelings (: *** I will lift it up to God and move on (: 0 comment[s] | back to top2010
My 2010 visions : Spiritual : 1) Reach out to 5 friends. 2) Read through the whole bible. 3) Pray at least half an hour a day. 4) Bible study till victorious living. 5) Fast every Wednesday. 6) To be promoted to OM. =X Personal : 1) Slim down 10kg. 2) Debt-free - Pay all my bills and debts. - No borrowing of money. 3) Get a good job. -Currently waiting for the person to contact me on Mon for a job called QC(Quality Checks) 4) Save a total of $4,000,put aside for studies. 5) Try to put on fake eyelashes in replace of thick eyeliner. 6) No more AH-LIAN look. 7) Good countenance always. 8) To go into the next level of maturity. Relational : 1) Forgive all the people who I used to dislike. - Drop them a message of apology and tell them I am no longer angry with them and that I have let go of the past. 2) Give my phone book's friends a goodnight message daily. 3) Do meet ups with friends at least once a week. Cell group: 1) Step out of my comfort zone and mingle around with everybody in the cell group 2) Avail myself to help out in cg when needed. 3) Forge new relationships with one another not just Adeline and Shannon. 4) Be 100% accountable to Mingyao 5) Be teachable Family : 1) BE a good testimony - No more raising of voice - Go home earlier like before 12am - Buy / cook for them every sunday - Help do the laundry - Work and give them money - Study hard and get my diploma cert. 0 comment[s] | back to top |
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