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THANKS FOR THAT PUNCH.
you fucking idiot. cb. 0 comment[s] | back to topWhen your words are so hurtful that I turn a dead ear.No matter what I do, it will never be enough. No matter how hard I try, you will never acknowledge it. To you, results are the best explanation. Kill me then. I really can't be that perfect daughter of yours. I may not do a lot of housework. But, I did pack medicine into the capsules so that you can eat. But you say you DON'T NEED. And when I did not do so, you say I can't understand you. I do pedicure for you. You say you DON'T NEED. And when i did not do it, you say I don't care about you. Sorry mum, but it hurts. I know I always turn a deaf ear. I just do not know what to do. I don't want it to affect anymore. Going to the mirror, telling the mirror image of me that "I am pretty, I am worth of goodness." daily is tiring. And after I do it, just a sentence from you, can drop all my confidence,self-worthiness, self-esteem to drop ZERO. I am scared. I admit I am just an insecure girl. Being with such a suave prince, someone who is so respectable, someone who is so nice and good character, I am disappointed with myself as well. I feel that I am not worthy of him too. I feel that I am not good enough too. But, I am trying. Trying really hard. But.... you will never understand. In your eyes, I am just that. I am someone who is unworthy of goodness. I am someone that even if I want to go and "sell", no one will want. I am someone who will never be loved. I am someone who can't last long in relationship, because I am too fat for them and they will turn their hearts away from me when they see the world more. Sorry, it hurts. Really. I chose to turn a deaf ear. Sorry. Forgive me. 0 comment[s] | back to topHAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY ❤It is our one month :D This one month had been really great. A month we open up ourselves and to know each other better.. Clearing of doubts.. Trying out things we never did before. I can only say that as time goes by, my love for him is more and more. Although lesser smses,our hearts are still close. I call this, " The Power of chattering hearts " The two ultimately turning into one. 0 comment[s] | back to topI am sorry that sometimes I get a lil' jealous,thinking that someone else can make you happier than I could. I guess it's my insecurities acting up. Because I know that I am not the prettiest, smartest or the most fun and exciting girl. But I do know that no matter how hard or long you look, YOU WILL NEVER FIND SOMEBODY THAT LOVES YOU LIKE I DO. (: No idea why I am feeling that bad. Maybe of what my mum said and stumbled me? Maybe my insecurities are acting up? Maybe I am just someone who is selfish enough to only want undivided attention? *ponders* 0 comment[s] | back to topHAPPY 300th posts! :Ddedicating this post for SCHIRMER JOEL JONATHAN. (:  He is my miracle.. He is my light.. He is my guidance.. He is my confidence.. He is my strength.. He is my reason to love.. He is my proudness.. He is my love.. He is my prince.. He is my dearest.. He is my bestfriend.. He is my boyfriend.. He is my listening ear.. He is my sword.. He is my shield.. He is my heart-mender.. He is my blanket.. He is my partner.. He is my precious.. He is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.. He is the one I want to walk down the altar with.. He is the one I want to help fulfill his dream.. He is the one I want to walk through thick and thin with.. He is the one I want to see again even in heaven.. He is the one I want to hold his hands forever.. He is the one I want to have him to myself forever.. He is the one I want to cling on to till the end.. He is the one I want to go the highways and the byways for.. He is the one I want to give all of my best.. He is the one I want to understand from the tiniest thing.. He is the one I want to entrust myself to.. He is the one I want to make things work no matter how tough it is.. He is the one I want to treasure always.. He is the one I want to support always.. He is the one I want to see him through all his days.. I had gave him my mind.. I had gave him my heart.. I had gave him my soul.. I had gave him my support.. I had gave him all that I could and couldn't.. But to me, it is never enough~ I will make things work, together hand in hand with him. Even if it is really tough. Yes, no matter how hard it is. I will persevere, because of him. (: Prince, I want you to know that I will be alright out here. I know you are really working hard in NS. I understand you really wish to be there for me all the time. I am here , baby! I will always be.. Thank you so much for appearing in my life. Thank you being the burglar who breaks into my life and steal my heart yet clumsily left yours in replace of mine. Your heartbeat beats in mine. You had been really wonderful. What more can I ask for? I know one has his flaw :D And I have it too! Didn't you try to accept it too? So will I! You had loved me when I am at the ugliest. And I will become the type of girlfriend whom will match up to yours, though I know you don't mind it at all. =X Maybe people call this pride, people call it ego. But I call it the motivation to keep improving. I am a perfectionist in disguise! :D And I am a selective perfectionist! :X And you are the reason why I want to be~ Lastly, I love you ♥ Agape, Winnie-Delphine . F (: 0 comment[s] | back to top |