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我累了。。。
有时候，真得很想问：‘为什么要这么坚强？’ 有时，真得很累。。 连我自己都无法回答自己的问题。。 我好像已经失去自己了。。 我看看天空。。 没变啊！为什么我好像有些改变？ 也许这一切的一切在我不知不觉中就已经在改变。。 只是我无法面对现实？ 我的眼眶为什么会又泪？ 为什么我终觉得心里有一种说不出的痛苦？ 或许舍我累垮了吧？ 在这种环境生活。。 我好难适应。。 天天面对这无爱的家庭。。 让我累，让我伤。。 生活好像失去了很多乐趣。。 我好像被一个很固执的贝壳紧紧锁起来。。 无法自拔。。 我是着打开。。 但现在却全身无力。 yesterday iie wasn't at work. two reasons: 1)my clothes were undone,it was obvious someone touched me. [[sighh,sometimes iie feel so tense up with it. why even at home i have to worry?]] 2)iie was having heavy diahorrea. [[but how many cares?]] i am sick!sick of all these.............. iie hate that bastard! peepos say go and call police.. you think i don't want?but i still have to spare a thought for my mum! who can understand my agony? those agony i dig a hole to hide it.. but i didn't seems to hide well for iie still can see it.. *tears dropped uncontrollably* iie seek for understanding.. iie seek for reasonable things. why must yoo all take away the only thing that can make me happpy aaway? iie am crying so painfully on the inside, do yoo all know? GOD~ whyy??whyyyy?WHYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyYY? TELL ME WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! iie have never felt so unloved before. iie am under a medication. DON'T ASK ME WHAT MEDICATION! I DON'T WISH TO SHARE :'( this medication has alot of side effects.. for that i remember: -mouth dryness -taste disturbance -dizziness -high blood pressure -affects the liver -hypertension -will feel extreme high -u will have suicidal thoughts -much more emo than now that u are i experience all these today. except for the [affects liver] and [high blood pressure]? despite they know got this side effects, they don't even care.. i wonder what i am in their eyes.. i will never show u my sad face. cos i know u will never care. so i won't show. i promise myself.. i will never weep in front of yoo all.. even when ii am beaten up.. NO MORE.IT'S THE END. how much do yoo all care about me?! sometimes ii just feel like feigning laughters. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! but deep inside i just know i wasn't happy.. iie just wann tuu be silent.. yoo all make me choose one out of two impt things in life. SIM/CHURCH SIM-if i choose this i will have a cert -if i don't,i will not be able to study CHURCH-the only place i find happiness -the only place i can heal myself BOTH are important.yet yoo viciously want me to choose.. automatically,i will have to choose SIM ya? yoo all know that.. whyy make me choose? why take away my ONE and ONLY HAPPINESS? *tears begin to flow again* i am left with nothing le.. my circle of *friends* only church. the only place i can dwell in, now yoo all snatch it all.. wei shen me lian wo zhui hou de xin fu dou yao duo zhou? ='( 0 comment[s] | back to top |