B E . S T R O N G

sometimes i feel very disappointed with myself.

i always ask myself,

"How do i serve people better? ;

How do I change myself to suit others? ;

How can i be winsome? ;

How can i serve better to friends , cell group church and ministry? ;

How do I serve my leader better? ;

How to bear a good testimony? ; "

How and how and how?!

I wept over and ovee again..

everytime i step out to try,

i face many rejections and ignorance.

yes,this is normal..

But sometimes.

i really need a rest.

I really need comfort.

YOu may ask,

"You don't say,how i know?I also not God what!?"

You know,sometimes i don say because

[x]I am afraid i may be disappointed because you may not be able to fulfill my expectations of someone who knows about my problem and the actions taken.

[x]I just need you to observe like I do.I need some attention and care.

you may say i am self-centered.

But seriously I am not.

Is just that I am tired being the one who care everytime.

Tired of being the one who always stand up and pull people together.

And most of the time,my efforts go to a waste.

sometimes oi swallow it myself..

YES,i do tell people the truth about them.

But not all my sour feelings are poured out

because i have learnt to be tactful of words i speak and who i speak to(:

I really reallyyy try my best to tone down,

to be nice,

to control my temper.

I really realllyyyy did.

But again and again,

I seem transparent to people J=

I try my best to control the negative side of me to flow in..

But how?

I am so tired of one person, _ _ _ _ _ _ .

I don't wish to disclose the name.

i want to let you know,i am tired.

I don't think i do you wrong.

WHy am i treated unfairly from other girls?

WHY?

Is it cos i am bad?

Is it cos i am not up to the standard the other have?

haish.

i am tired of trying so hard.

So tired that my tears cannot stop flowing.

please be sensitive,will you?

you may feel i don't deserve your care.

But please tell me why.

Don't leave me here and just ignore.

because i treat u as a friend, a family member just like how i treat others.

sighh. J=

END.

i don't want to further talk.

wish MingYao has a happy trip to Vietnam ahead(:

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