THE QUEEN T A K E N . B Y . S J J
THE KING T A K E N . B Y . F Q T
QUEEN'S SPEECH T H E . V E R D I C T
Love ♥ I L O V E Y O UReminiscing ♥ A . P A R T . O F . M Y . L I F E | suddenly i feel that i seems to have changed alot. my life changes. my thinking changes. my attiude changes. even my bestfriend seems to be changed. i no longer can be their encourager. no longer can be their listener. just because? i can't stand it when they are georgy. when i talk to them.. they just nod their head and say ya..and ya.... then go home they are still looking down on themselves.. people around are so busy about work and financial crisis! and what is there to look down on yourself when it is obvious you are not ugly? everytime you look down on yourself, you affects me.. you are pretty and you will say,"aiya..you cannot understand me de la." and you will say what they say to you.. AND! hello??? all these irritating and esteem-killer words, you keep it in your heart. what about all the encouragements and sincere praises we told you? all go in one ear and out one ear? sick Sick SIck SICk SICK! ARGHH! why do i not speak to you? because you told me before most of the things i said, you disagree most of the times. you are my bestfriend. other disagree i can understand.. but even you feel that.. you think only u will have no confidence? i have lost all my confidence to speak and encourage! you say you yoU yOU YOU.. what about meeee? i don't even have the motivation to even do such thing anymore! when i tell myself,"i can de." the words you told me rings my mind.. i feel so lousy of myself. i left you out there not to let you be alone. in that i can't fulfill your wants! only those people out there can! i am tired. in many friendships, i have sunk into the well. now come to our turn liao. sigh! sick ; sad ; wu zhu. what else? you are not the only one who is tired. i am too. at least you have your guy friends. what do i have? my turn to say,"you will never understand de la!" i am so drained out.. i need fresh air.. and the only love i can really feel is love of god. that is why every friday and saturday is days i look forward to.. i need to renew my mind. i need peace. i need love. i am tired. so tired... i am still holding on.. just that i am sinking right into the "absorbing mud" soon. will you hold on to me? or will you choose to let go?
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