B E . S T R O N G

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU (:

i went to watch bedtime stories and went countdown
at Padang field there.
i should say it supposed to be fun,
just that i am locked up in my own comfort zone
and in my very own world which no ones can come in.
i am very upset indeed.
"can't be bothered." is just the irony way of saying for me perhaps.
i just feel helpless ba?
hahs.
well.just so me.
i was very high during movie.for the sake of friends.
when they are gone,
i am back to myself (:
sorry to the people who were there.
i know i am emo,
it is just that i couldn't get out from it.
i just feel like a hen,
so cooped up in the cage.
very pressurized and stressed.
really really very.

despite that,
i still want to give thanks to :

SHANNON
SOON PENG
KENNETH
XUE TING
WILSON
KEVIN

for pei-ing me to mrt.
i feel the love ((:
i feel the comfort,
though i am in my own world,
but i can still feel it,definitely.

yesterday was like no buses.
i have to walk home.
i walked like for 2hours?
the people who i tried to call can't be reached.
one reached le told me to walk home.
thanks ah!
sadded.
almost fainted @.@
i was so down,
i couldn't stop crying.
the things i had done,
the fact i am abandoned because of my "family background"
all that..
the effort i tried to connect with all my members yet failed
for this VERY PARTICULAR PERSON,
breaking trust here and there.
i can't believe what a **** person i am.
i decided to call my kor(:
ya indeed, reachable.
i poured out ALL my feelings to him.
he never fails to light up my dark nights.
never fails to make me smile.
he is knowledgeable and understanding.

THANK YOU, JEFFREY.

meanwhile,
i think i want to change my style.
from craziness to quietness.
and more.
my hair,my dressing,my thinking and etc.
i want to increase the capacity of my tolerance and more.
good luck for myself for that.

"Walk by faith and not by sight."

i had a bad start for 1 Jan 2009.
negative feelings.
negative things upon me.
no understanding from parents.
scoldings upon scoldings.
sighh.
i am sick of all these.
ARGHHH!
i don't care!!
don't wanna care!!
can't care either!!

Let it go is the solution (:
i don't want to make myself heavier either.
i wann to move on.
yes i do.

T A K E N . B Y . S J J

T A K E N . B Y . F Q T

T H E . V E R D I C T

I L O V E Y O U

A . P A R T . O F . M Y . L I F E

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