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i am having flames =(
my throat is so pain when i swallow anything. and it is affecting my right ear. and there is blood in my flames. today i went out very early like 6plus in the morning. to attend my band members' SYF. they really played well today. but they got a silver. i believe they must be very disappointed. but FSMB,you guys really did well! the spirit of music was really running on fire with you guys! result is not the main thing k? cheer up!you guys did your best and we all can feel it! Good job! you guys did FSMB proud and i am proud of you guys! (: cheer up,bestie! you deserve better. LOVES. love never fails (: 0 comment[s] | back to top  i tried curling my hair on Wednesday.how do i look? is it nice? On this day,i coincidentally ran onto my last time friend,Jaryl. Guess what he said, "WOW!omg!you look like japanese pop star!gonna call you japanese pop star next time." he indeed boosted my confidence. it had been years that we saw each other. i got to know him when my mother was still opening the bubble tea shop.. he is my loyal and regular customer. i know he loves my recommendations!HAHA! if he sees this message,he is gonna give me that sceptical look and say,"haha!not bad huh!" i kinda like this hairstyle. but i still feel that my hair is still too short for perming. so i took away that thought. moreover,i want to enjoy mature and cute look at the same time. 一举两得.. =D so..i can get myself a curler and curl my hair as and when i want. i want straight hair or curled hair also can.. :D oh yes regarding Saturday. the prayer meeting is very meaningful and MJ lay hands too. i was one of the ushers to form lines. this is something i never try before. it is really not that easy. perhaps it is because of my mood that day. hmmm! hmmmm! hmmmm! i am better already! the service is nice and funny. i did not have to serve choir because the CCC is leading! they simply rocks! after service,mingyao spoke with me. i admit in the beginning i am very not open. i did not expect myself to say out. i thank God and mingyao's effort to talk wisely, that makes me able to open up as the conversation goes on.. i don't want anymore "Are you ok?" from people anymore. in the sense,i want to guard my feelings and do things i should do. i want to be back on track again. same F word, Focus! i need to know what i want and make myself be that someone that can attract it. i was very happy because at last i manage to get Adeline to dress the tube dress out. suddenly my spirits just run wild..haha! indeed my efforts and time spent is not into waste. indeed God is always good (: take a look at my final model!  before... BUT- after my magical hands...  TADA~ shocked?! she is Miss Universe! isn't it amazing? she looks like Miss universe due to my shaw~! HAHA! she is brave! she can do it! i always tell her that! i believe she felt very confident after some time. it is not easy task! when i dolled her up in the toilet, she went down to B4 and stucked at the staircase struggling to go down. so i ran up and encouraged her(: she was further convinced when the rest of the cg members and especially Mingyao praised her. i hope she will continue to doll up(: meanwhile,me myself..i wanna slim down. i know i say alot of times already.but! hmmm.i gonna believe again! and do it! yes yes! my plan :
heh heh!! i want to stick to it clearly. my goal : 10kg off my body by end of this year. it can be done i believe! (: i miss precious alot luhh! you better catch up with me,i tell you! TSK. always camp camp camp! kill you then you know! hahas XD i also miss bestie. you ah! you owe me one day for me! haha XD see ya tomorrow o! a review of what i will be doing tomorrow: 6am onwards will be attending my fuhua military band's SYF. go there and cheer them up and build their morale :D yes FSMB! you all can get GOLD! Fsmb's F-horns ROCK ON! you guys are the people who will be leading the band. start strong and the band will go along with you. i believe in you guys! a place with me will be good! HAHA! see you guys tomorrow! rest well! <3 0 comment[s] | back to topsomeone is very proud of you someone is thinking of you someone cares about you someone misses you someone wants to talk to you someone wants to be with you someone hopes you aren't in trouble someone is thankful for the support you have provided someone wants to hold your hand someone hopes everything turns out all right someone wants you to be happy someone wants you to find them someone is celebrating your successes someone wants to give you a gift someone think you ARE a gift someone hopes you are not too cold, or too hot someone wants to hug you someone loves you someone wants to lavish you with small gifts someone admires your strength someone is thinking of you and smiling someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun someone thinks the world of you someone wants to protect you someone would do anything for you someone wants to be forgiven someone is grateful for your forgiveness someone wants to laugh with you about old times someone remembers you and wishes you were there someone needs to know that your love is unconditional somebody values your advice someone wants to tell you how much they care someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you someone wants to share their dreams with you someone wants to hold you in their arms someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms someone treasures your spirit someone wishes they could STOP time because of you someone can't wait to see you someone wishes that things didn't have to change someone loves you for who you are someone loves the way you make them feel someone wants to be with you someone hears a song that reminds them of you someone wants you to know they are there for you someone is glad that you're their friend someone wants to be your friend someone stayed up all night thinking about you someone is alive because of you someone is wishing that you would notice them someone wants to get to know you better someone believes that you are their soul mate someone wants to be near you someone misses your guidance and advice someone values your guidance and advice someone has faith in you someone trusts you someone needs you to send them this letter someone needs your support someone needs you to have faith in them someone needs you to let them be your friend someone will cry when they read this 0 comment[s] | back to top my final "product" :D  0 comment[s] | back to top What a chio adeline yeah? 0 comment[s] | back to topYour view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you: You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.0 comment[s] | back to topgoodbye 0 comment[s] | back to topya!ya!ya!forever you correct. talk whatever nonsense you want, i only can say i am completely turned off. someone good ask me to hold my ground. of course i want to, but she is getting out of hand and it is making me go crazy! other than God,Himself is love that i standby, you made me look for love at the wrong places. 11years!11YEARS! come on! you guys are never there to protect me! since primary school to secondary school and even at HOME! i hate you! why?why?why?why?why?why?why? in the 10 commandments, "Honor your parents." sighh! will money do? sighh. no it is never enough. it is a true heart of love for them that is needed. they seem worse than enemy! )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': )': i don't want to give up. i don't want to look for love at the wrong place! idontwantidonwantidontwantidonwantidontwantidonwantidontwantidonwantidontwantidonwant! ARGHs. "one encouragement and love words spoken by a parent can cover 100 encouragements from others." but i will not look forward anymore. maybe i have already given hope on them! totally. che che di di de fang qi! wo yi jing fei chang sian le! )= gimme some time to relax. i want to move out,if it is possible. *dilema* i want but i can't. the truth i hanging on to and all these negative thoughts just not click! STOP! DELPH, DO NOT MEDITATE ON THE BAD THINGS, IF NOT IT WILL KEEP ON HAPPENING~! speak the double F words! F.o.r.g.i.v.e and F.o.r.g.e.t 0 comment[s] | back to topI did this because i don't know how to create notes. =x ONCE YOURE DONE, TAG 15 PEOPLE TO DO IT. IF YOU'RE TAGGED, COPY AND PASTE THIS ON YOUR OWN NOTES AND ANSWER THEM TRUTHFULLY! 1. Who is your best girl friend? ONLY CHOOSE ONE RIGHT? shannon 2. If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care? more or less sure will de. especially if i like too. 3. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? haiz,sadly no. 4. Where did you last sleep other than your house? mrt? 5. Do you have a best friend? Yea. 6. Do you smoke? used to in the past.not now. 7. Do you remember what you were like when you were a kid? super cute 8. Can you vote for the next election? don't know leh? 9. What are you listening to? Zhu fu de jia qi 10. When will your next kiss be? hmmm. good qns. do i look like kiss-predictor?HAHA. 11. Who do you want to see right now? I want to see him.. 12. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex? not really?maybe have but i cant recall now. 13. When did your last hug take place? 12 march 09 14. Do you date smart people? of course if i see one. 15. Where were you at 2:02pm this afternoon? home. 16. What does the last text in your phone says? "Haha. Me now feeding my dad. Later i call you? " 17. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot? YUPPP 18. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? OOPS! i did =xXxXx 19. Who did you last eat with? MOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. 20. Do you text alot? depends who i am texting with. 21. How old will you be in 13 months? 19 22. When is the last time you tattooed? Never ever tried it. 23. If you like that person will you talk about your feelings or hide them? depends who is it, if he likes me too,i will just tell him. 24. Do you wear glasses? Yes. 25. What are you looking forward to in the next month? 26. Will you talk to the person you like tonight? yes of course. 27. What color shirt are you wearing? black 28. Do you have a reason to smile right now? Yes 29. If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first ? I would pay my building fund. 30. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with? What was it about? care bear.一起看电视 with each other's company through call. 31. Who was driving the last car you were in? father 32. Who was the last person that called you? care bear 33. What are you craving right now? chips. PLEASE. i am hungry for food. 34. What if you married the last person you kissed? marry him? that must be miracle. 35. What are you excited about? tomorrow i can go out already and friday will be a nice day for me. 36. Ever kissed your number 1 on facebook? NOPE 37. When was the last time you cried? And why? yesterday night. i got so provoked by mother's naggs.everyday from morning till sleep still nag. 38. Ever kissed someone whose name starts with an A? mei you. 39. Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what? Yes. 40. Last person you hugged? adeline 41. What were you doing at 2:00 am last night? snoring. 42. Have you cried today? yea 43. What bed did you sleep in last night ? queen size-d bed 44. Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy? yeaps. 45. Ever talked to someone that was high? yes 46. Does it snow where you live? sadly no. 47. When is the next time you will see your grandma? cant connect with her,she is in heaven. 48. Have you kissed or hugged someone today ? No 49. Will you be married in the next two years ? No 50. Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldn't have? Yes. 51. Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged? Single and complicated. 52. How have you felt today ? bored and disturbed. 53. Do you like your name? YES! 54. Are you happy at the moment? so so ba 55. What were you doing at 10:00pm last night ? bathing. 56. Last person who drove you somewhere (besides your parents)? no one. 57. Ever kissed someone in a closet? Nope 58. Do you live alone ? No 59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to? Yes 60. Are you crazy? EXTREME 61. Who was the last person to call you babe? care bear 62. How has this past week been for you? stressed and negative. 63. Last thing you drank ? soup. 64. Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason? Yes 65. Could you ever forgive a cheater? Yes 66. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be? a really pure pink dolphin 67. What do you normally order when you're at McDonald's? mac spicy 68. Last book you read? 33 bei kuai le zhi shui 69. Describe your mood. Kinda agitated and frustrated 70. Describe the last time you were injured? Don't know 71. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? care bear,because i know he will try to get me out =xXx 72. Rock concert or symphony? Both also good. 73. Do you like taking the MRT? personal one maybe? 74. If you could only use a form of transportation..? my personal car with a personal driver. 75. Whats your favorite kind of cake? cakes that are nice and not so sweet 76. Look 20 degrees to your left, what do you see? My bed 77. Do you untie your shoes when you take it off? No 78. Do you buy your own groceries? sometimes. 79. What's your favorite fruit? peach 80. Do you like running long distances? no 81. Have you ever eaten snow? no 82. What color are your bedsheet? blue! 83. Do you hate someone very badly at this moment? yes,but trying to stop it. TSK! 84. Do you watch Spongebob? YEAH! 85. What temperature is it outside right now? normal? 86. Do you consider yourself smart? lame will be the better one 87. How many piercings do you have? 2pairs 88. What language do you speak at home? chinese 89. How do you feel about your family? one word : PRESSURIZED 90. What time did you go to bed yesterday? Forgotten 91. What CD is currently in your CD player? don have 92. What do you want for Christmas this year? a pair of real nice and comfortable flats and metal heels dress pleaseee. 93. What is your favourite ice cream ? BENTEN CAFE's ICE CREAM! oh no. i craves for it RIGHT NOW. saliva drooling. 94. What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? a strange reaction when reading my surname ,"Fur" 95. Lastly, whats your favorite color? Red, Pink , Black Labels: 虽然我不是很喜欢他，但我不可以现在推开他，因为我知道如果我现在推开他，他会被那些悲伤彻底击毁. 0 comment[s] | back to topyesterday night i went for the project superstar's 现场直播 at media corp,with Adeline,Cindy,Yan Ling,Shu Hui,Wei Jun,Verlin,Nico and i forget the rest. and of course also with carebear. he took half day off to pei me go there. thankful? happy? touched? perhaps so. when i reached there i realized i am supporting Ai Jia. she is darn cute and her voice is so nicce. the moment she started singing.. wooooo...goosebumps just crawl all over me. you gotta believe it man! and she got in in the last result with Jarod(another cute and good in singing boy) yes. i was happy. carebear thought he could sit with me.. but ya..i was with adeline. we were like tickling each other. *chuckles* thanks to that stupid carebear. he go and tell adeline my weak point. TSK sia! hahaz! and there adeline goes, trying to tickle me! muahahaha! soon it become not very ticklish already. supeer random. you have a pair of beautiful eyes,baby. looking into the eyes of yours , i never fail to be electrified. its as if you have captivated my heart. my soul and my mind are crazy over you. just you,baby,just you. it may be destiny we met, but definitely not fated to be together. 有缘无份. though i am reall upset about it, let's believe this : "Happiness is like a butterfly: 我不会再帮你擦眼泪了。the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder." take care. the last time will never come again. goodbye. 0 comment[s] | back to top*round of applause to welcome delph delph back for blogging***applauses** "Okayys.Thank you everybody(: " eventually i was not able to go out on sunday which cell group meeting falls on. yes pretty worried and upset. i am hungry for it i should sAY. maybe i do not look like i am, but i do really hunger for it. i begin to think of ways to accommodate. yes accommodate. i promise to stay at home for at 3 days in a week for an exchange of being able to attend cell group meeting and service. maybe to may people out there it is super easy, don't seems to be a sacrifice. but to me, it is. during school days, i rarely meet my friends and besties. no time. and now it is holidays. i can't even have the freedom. 1 April school is going to start again. given freedom also no use anymore. i need to coop with my studies. this time round,my exams are going to be LOUSY or even FAIL. i had really put in effort to study already. but, well. i still can't do it. talking about this. tears just fell uncontrollably. at times i have thoughts of committing suicide. i always shout "STOP" to it. i am really pushing myself. to stop thinking about negative things, to read the Word and to pray. i am clinging on to Him, so committing suicide is a "NO-NO" decision. moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney they are driving me CRAZY. speak the F word. F.A.I.T.H 0 comment[s] | back to top"You may be generally an amiable and pleasant person.You may generally get along well with most people. But somehow, there is that one family member, that one friend, that one colleague, who doesn't take to you very well. This might disappoint you, sadden you, or even disillusion you. Don't allow it to. Every single person is unique. Every single relationship is different. Somewhere, somehow, there will be people who don't quite get along. If you allow yourself to adjust your personal values, to change the person that you are, just to win over that one person or few people, you run the risk of adversely affecting the good relationships you do have. Be positive. Focus on your happy relationships. At the same time, accept that there will be ones that don't go so well. Whatever you say or do, whoever you are, whatever character or personality you have, you won't be able to please everyone." Don't you agree with me? (: I have been trying to be good with everyone. Everytime people who comes in and out of my life.. Some of them got upset with me.. I was sad. AGAIN. yes like someone told me before. FOCUS! put all your efforts on these into studies. yea..sometimes i wonder why do i become so sensitive. Like when i am in the same status as one person. and that person always got praised? Is it because i never do well or they just forget to praise me. Indeed i am silly enopugh to think, "If only i can do even better.Maybe the things i made are childish?(:" thats just me. i believe someone outta there is gonna cherish my doings and love them for who they are. Sorry to say my hands and her hands make different thing,yeah? i may nmot be as artistic as she is, but i am unique in my own ways , I believe. Hopefully all these while the people who receive the things i do,feel happy. alrights. no more comparison =xXxXx i am so tensed up nowadays. i can't stand anymore that i cry during PM. this time round a real cry. i asked myself,"why must i always want to know so much when i am not even sure if i can tolerate it." Even when i say i am a good man and not a good girl.. i am still a girl though.. i tolerate like man do, and cry like girls do.. sometimes i say i am genuine. but now i began to doubt. sometimes i feel i am so coooped up.. i can't be free to let go my emotions. why? fear of this and that.. maybe the trust between the people i am with together id not that strong yet. guess someone is going to ask,"So what are you going to do about it?" XD i am going toooooo............fellowship more??? i think i have really tried fellowshipping. though i know you guys may think why i always talk to her laugh with her. Because she is too quiet? then some may ask did you encourage her to talk more? I DO I DO! but she say she try..... i can only give her some time. if i push her too much and cause her to backslide how? well.. i am not doing that well too...advices....well.i dono what i am capable to do now..i thought i was a good advicer? but i was wrong. it is not just about one incident. but when i asked some of them to double confirm my thinking, yea they did. they say only "some" do help them. haiz. so what should i do? believe that i can give good advices again? then later i give wrong again then how? aiya..whatever.. no time and energy to think about it. anyway..sadly..i can never be with carebear. (: why? because he is not _ _ _ i _ _ i _ _ . do i consider being loyal? hmmm. maybe yes maybe no. don't want to be disturbed by it. i have told him, "It is impossible.Unless you are a _ _ _ i _ _ i_ _. (:" he says he wont.. so yes..i don't want to get too _ _ _ i _ i _ _ _ too. and yeah. and nowadays this someone keep making me feel vexed. low confidence and esteem peepos, get out of my life! either you change it or leave it. i am provoked. am i suppose to wait or let go? why am i trapped by you? TSK! can't expect myself to still think i shall wait for you. "We are not meant for each other." is coming to my mind.. Oh God, show me the way. This month of holiday i am going to devote myself to Bible reading and seriously praying. Yes i will. Random: Love me for my mind and not my body ; play with my body and not my mind. Labels: Tell me what i should do. 0 comment[s] | back to top"Girls are like phones. We love to be held, talked to, but if you press the wrong button you'll be disconnected!" (although sometimes we still wish you were still there on the other end of the line....) A lot of things had happened just in like a few days time? i have many reflections to do. i really think i need to read my bible man! i got so confused with what people tell me. One word : "TSK!" Hmmms. my bible study classes too =xXx GOSH! i am like i missed my precious luhh! she been in camp like for ages! you better catch up your sleep and ME! hmmm. i get to know a man called "care bear" not long ago. welll..if i were to describe him.... let me seee..i should say.. he is a very caring man luhh.. well..if you say L-O-V-E, it is still up there yet.. aiya. L-O-V-E is suppose to be sweeet and pleasant ya? not it is troubling me. "Man's lack of confidence kills delph delph." Anyway like i say,at least for this whole year, i am not jumping to any relationship. not even those who win my heart. sorry..i summit to authority. or should i say i not just a duty. but the trust we have. i believe my leader wants the best for me. (: i just don't wish myself to regret from time to time. i don't want to keep on tracking water for so long. i am not even near my marriage age. if you guys can wait, i may consider. what is L-O-V-E to you guys? (: hmmms. nah mind.. oh yes... CONGRATS TO SANDY FOR PASSING HER FTT (: Let me share a story i read: You Can't Please Everyone. 0 comment[s] | back to top |