B E . S T R O N G

hmmm. *HU...HA...HU...HA*
cheering for myself.
i am pretty down,
but that is not suppose to be the time
to feel this way.
-C.A.N.N.O.T-
it can't happen at this moment.
i have been multi-tasking.
my mind is just somewhere else where
it s.h.o.u.l.d n-o-t be at.
where is my focus?
why am i always losing it?
i don't want to fall into temptations again and again.
i know this path will upset me
& still i am walking in.
真是自作自受.
C.M.I
detest this type of me.
sigh.
i must be strong, i am strong,i know.
i can be what i want to be.

do you know what've been in my mind?
-if i fail MPo, out of school i will go,HOW?-
-HR,Marketing and Managerial Accounts.HOW?-
-If i fail one of those,i can't go sem 4,HOW?-
-it simply means i can't grad this year,HOW?-
-no money pay bill,HOW?-
-no money fulfill building fund,HOW?-
-FATS FATS FATS, HOW?-
-dilemma.HOW?-
-no sense of security,don't know why,HOW?-
-face is worse to worst,HOW?-
-eye bags and eye black is worse,HOW?-
-something is amiss, HOW?-
-i can't sleep well,HOW?-

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can i get back to the old times?
time cannot reverse.
:'(
why?why?why?
guys outta there.
learn something:

think twice before doing anything.
seek for the right people's advice.

there is so much i want to do.
so much..
i want to be there for people.
i can't be there for everybody.
and it seems like i cannot even
take care of myself.
i am yearning..
yearning for many things.
# a teddy hug
# truth
# help
# true love
# sense of belonging
# sense of security
# true care
# true attention
# out of poverty
# focus
# good memory
# anti-tiredness
# more diligence
# more time
# better skin

i do really hope i can c-o-l too.
but i know i have to be strong.
i have to..
why am i only able to cry in the dark?
when i am sleeping..
when i am at my house balcony,
as if i am looking at the scenery but
actually i am just crying secretly..
when i am on the bus..
when i am in the rain..
when i am walking on the street..
e.m.o is what people will say.
"e.m.o" is like a casual remark
for people to use on people
who show their sad emotions.
friends, if you just want to see the
happy side of someone,
there is no point to be in the friendship
what is "thick and thin"?
what are friends for?
why people still feel lonely when
they have alot of friends surrounding them?
that is because they have to fake their smiles!
to gain friendship,
fear being called an emo and neglected.
how many people can accept friends who
dare to show who they themselves are?
don't blame your friends for not being
themselves when they are with you.
reflect yourself of how you have been as a friend.

*i think i am abit side tracking my blog post*
TSK.

sometimes no matter what i do,
things will not change.

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