B E . S T R O N G

Happy Birthday to Winnie!
{& that is me}
Happy Birthday to Delphine!
{& that is still me}
:D

I had a very surprising birthday this year,
by my beloved cell group. S33 (:
From the birthday bread --> birthday cake
--> birthday card --> presents!
They are surprises beyond surprises.
They make my day turns out well.
& the only ones.
other than minghua, verlin & cindy.
Thanks all of you!<3>

the one person i waited for
to sms me,
forgotten it.
but, yeah.
it's okayys(:
ever since the day
i decided to choose
Him over him.

Last year's today,
you brought me to paragon
which i have never been.
to Cold Storage to declare to your godmother
"she is my girlfriend."
you showed me around to your ex-colleagues.
you brought me to eat pepper lunch
which i have never eaten.
you held me tight.
you brought me to great world city
which was the first time i were there.
i was roaming about at Skin Couture shop.
& saying i am so in love with the clothes
you say it is not nice because it is too loud.
But you still say,"go in & see lo"
we went in and i was so high.
it was the first time i enter Skin Couture shop.
even though i heard about it before.
you say,"choose 1 lo,i buy for you."
i smiled & rejected.
i say the size don't have my size,
but actually,
i did not want you to spend so much on me,
though i really hope i own one.
you did not prepare any present,
so you ask me to choose.
being someone who is so in love with you,
i walked around hoping to ifnd something that is cheap,
but there is none.
you took me to Face Shop & as me to choose anything
i need.
but i got it all..like mascaras & rest.
is remembered you were in your black T & "ns" pants,
i was with the black & white checkered shirt & white skinnies.
i tied my hair into half remembering you saying you love it that way.
with my favourite eye-liner with my purple contact lens.
also the way you love me to be.
you took me to watch movie & my parents sent us home.
we were so happy.
or perhaps it was only me.
2009, 20.06.90, today,
you were not by my side anymore.
it had been 1 year.
i struggle it through to now.
i will not turn back to my ways anymore.
perhaps even if you say,"come back to me again."
i will not go back.
no matter how tempted i will be.
no matter how sad i will be.
whether i will regret or not.
I guess it's too late.
but guess the day you speak this way
will never come.
& i hope it doesn't come.
or i will have to go through all the pain again
& alone.

Enough of letting my memories float(:

i heard about my bestie calling up by fsmb good friends.
to my very surprise,
all of them pushed it away(:
sorry i can't give a thing to excuses like,
"oh.. i am veryyyy busy. i don't think will celebrate."
you know it yourself(:
it is not about thinking my birthday is big.
it is about the friendship we had.
someone told me,"good friends no need to contact much."
is it true?
weekly? bi-weekly? monthly?
guess you did none of it!
don't claim we are good friends if we are not.
& now i know who is my real bestie.
it makes me feel stupid to take the my "Assumed bestie"
as real bestie in the past.
ultimate disappointment!
i begin to regret believing you being real to me
when all these while you kept the way you think of me,
to yourself!
& you claim you treat me as bestie(:
thanks for it.

Enough of venting.
i just felt a little sad.
please pardon my post.
i make sure next post onwards i will lessen all these.

T A K E N . B Y . S J J

T A K E N . B Y . F Q T

T H E . V E R D I C T

I L O V E Y O U

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