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The second clubbing

This is a late post I wanted to post for a long time.
It is about the second time I went clubbing (:
Seriously, I did not have any fun.
Being watched like as if you were someone's burden doesn't feel good at all.
However,I think many couldn't understand.
Some say, "You think too much."
while some say, "Don't think so much la."
Sometimes I just want to go there and let down my hair.
I think in this modern society,
it is not easy to show your true self especially when there are so many people who are out there trying to find a chance to hurt you.
Sometimes, perhaps we had learnt to hide our true feelings too well that we lost ourselves, begin to be unsure of who we really are.
And that is when I think getting some drinks and dance in the club is the one of the easiest way to find out how you truly felt.
I feel that club is the place where people are more accepting and open to all types of people.
I know I am not good-looking, no one will want to tackle me,
but still, I can freely drink and dance the way I want.
No one will stop me, no one will say anything.
Perhaps because they could understand that we are just one of the lost soul who needs to do some findings of ourselves.
Seriously, I am not there to look for relationships or look at some kind of hunks.
I am just there to chill and have fun.
And to me, that is not a bad place.
Perhaps it is because I am too fat and ugly so no one will approach to want to know me as they aren't interested in me.
That's why I won't encounter much problems.
I remembered Juju was there together with Bestie, Best-Tee and me.
Quite some people approached Bestie and Juju.
So when Juju turned to me when approached,
I looked at them and say,"No."
I told her to tell them we are lesbians! :D
haha! what a way right? :)
I want to learn to dance!
Like those real nice and hot moves.
So what even if I am fat and ugly?
God was still blown away when He made me. (:
And I am satisfied.
I do not want to be always so unhappy with life.
Seriously, I feel that it just waste makes me waste my life away.
I do not want to shortchange myself anymore.
And I am moving forward (:

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