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Comparisons and naiveness

Why are there always so many comparisons?

My mother will always compare me with others.
It really hurts especially she compare me with my best friend(s).
Compare my body shape,
compare my studies,
compare my status,
compare the amount of pay I have,
compare my walking style,
compare my study level,
compare compare compare!

Not just my family,
even the new people I met.
They will compare either.
Compare me with the girl friends I am with.
Compare body shape,
compare openness,
compare talking style,
compare attitude,
compare amount of smiles,
compare how one laugh,
compare how this and that.

Not just family and friends,
even teachers compare.
Compare results,
compare study attitude,
compare your facial expression,
compare how you write the words,
compare how you sit,
compare your life span of attention,
compare and compare and compare.

I really detest comparison.
It only makes me feel condemned.
Whenever I try to build my self confidence and self esteem,
comparisons will never fail to pull me down.
I think the reality will not be able to accept people
who are real in ALL their thinking and emotions.
And I find it very contradicting.
People claimed that they hate the masks people put on their
faces and fake their emotions.
However, the fact is that they themselves can't accept
the truth that people reveal & the true emotions that people show.
It just mark how selfish a person can be.

I think I am very naive.
The naiveness refers to my thinking that there is no truly
bad person in the world & everyone can be trusted.
How naive I can be?
This naive thinking was held close in my heart.
That is because I feel that everybody have a good and a bad side.
So no one will be totally bad.
I feel that everyone should have the chance to be trusted
even if he/she once cheated on others before.
I do not know why, but deep in my heart, I feel that
every person who cheated on others will really hope that
there will be that 1 person to believe in them.
I really don't want to judge them according to what they
ever done in their past.
I feel that they won't want people to look down on them
and compare them with people who have clean records.

I really don't like to be compared with people.
I do not want to lose that love in me and turn into a selfish person.
I don't want, really.

** I am just writing my feelings (:
*** I will lift it up to God and move on (:

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