When your words are so hurtful that I turn a dead ear.

No matter what I do,
it will never be enough.
No matter how hard I try,
you will never acknowledge it.
To you,
results are the best explanation.
Kill me then.
I really can't be that perfect daughter of yours.
I may not do a lot of housework.
But,
I did pack medicine into the capsules so that you can eat.
But you say you DON'T NEED.
And when I did not do so,
you say I can't understand you.
I do pedicure for you.
You say you DON'T NEED.
And when i did not do it,
you say I don't care about you.

Sorry mum, but it hurts.

I know I always turn a deaf ear.
I just do not know what to do.
I don't want it to affect anymore.
Going to the mirror,
telling the mirror image of me
that "I am pretty, I am worth of goodness." daily is tiring.
And after I do it,
just a sentence from you,
can drop all my confidence,self-worthiness, self-esteem
to drop ZERO.
I am scared.
I admit I am just an insecure girl.

Being with such a suave prince,
someone who is so respectable,
someone who is so nice and good character,
I am disappointed with myself as well.
I feel that I am not worthy of him too.
I feel that I am not good enough too.
But, I am trying.
Trying really hard.
But.... you will never understand.

In your eyes,
I am just that.
I am someone who is unworthy of goodness.
I am someone that even if I want to go and "sell", no one will want.
I am someone who will never be loved.
I am someone who can't last long in relationship,
because I am too fat for them and they will turn their hearts away from me
when they see the world more.

Sorry, it hurts.
Really.

I chose to turn a deaf ear. Sorry. Forgive me.

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