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I am back from meeting mingyao & adeline (:
GREATT. Although it is just sitting at tpy macdonalds, I think it is quite productive (: I feel that the talk was kind of inspiring. and it inspired me to work on myself(: i have a good time with adeline and talking to her (: PTL. some pictures from my birthday.  my cg. my birthday card by BAOBEI. my birthday present from the cg (((:so cute right? HAHA!  The cake i love the most! :Dcredits to my ah ma adeline! (:  SEE how excited i am :DD posing at my precious's camera! posing at my ladyship's camera(:0 comment[s] | back to top"it is the sincerity that counts, i hear of people saying they want to do “难道爸爸的肩膀不够你靠吗？” 0 comment[s] | back to topI will be going for Survivor campfrom 22 june - 25 june(: take care my bestie as you are in malaysia! i gonna miss you likeeeeeeeeeeee nobody business luhh! miss me!(: LOVES. 0 comment[s] | back to topHappy Birthday to Winnie! {& that is me} Happy Birthday to Delphine! {& that is still me} :D I had a very surprising birthday this year, by my beloved cell group. S33 (: From the birthday bread --> birthday cake --> birthday card --> presents! They are surprises beyond surprises. They make my day turns out well. & the only ones. other than minghua, verlin & cindy. Thanks all of you!<3> the one person i waited for to sms me, forgotten it. but, yeah. it's okayys(: ever since the day i decided to choose Him over him. Last year's today, you brought me to paragon which i have never been. to Cold Storage to declare to your godmother "she is my girlfriend." you showed me around to your ex-colleagues. you brought me to eat pepper lunch which i have never eaten. you held me tight. you brought me to great world city which was the first time i were there. i was roaming about at Skin Couture shop. & saying i am so in love with the clothes you say it is not nice because it is too loud. But you still say,"go in & see lo" we went in and i was so high. it was the first time i enter Skin Couture shop. even though i heard about it before. you say,"choose 1 lo,i buy for you." i smiled & rejected. i say the size don't have my size, but actually, i did not want you to spend so much on me, though i really hope i own one. you did not prepare any present, so you ask me to choose. being someone who is so in love with you, i walked around hoping to ifnd something that is cheap, but there is none. you took me to Face Shop & as me to choose anything i need. but i got it all..like mascaras & rest. is remembered you were in your black T & "ns" pants, i was with the black & white checkered shirt & white skinnies. i tied my hair into half remembering you saying you love it that way. with my favourite eye-liner with my purple contact lens. also the way you love me to be. you took me to watch movie & my parents sent us home. we were so happy. or perhaps it was only me. 2009, 20.06.90, today, you were not by my side anymore. it had been 1 year. i struggle it through to now. i will not turn back to my ways anymore. perhaps even if you say,"come back to me again." i will not go back. no matter how tempted i will be. no matter how sad i will be. whether i will regret or not. I guess it's too late. but guess the day you speak this way will never come. & i hope it doesn't come. or i will have to go through all the pain again & alone. Enough of letting my memories float(: i heard about my bestie calling up by fsmb good friends. to my very surprise, all of them pushed it away(: sorry i can't give a thing to excuses like, "oh.. i am veryyyy busy. i don't think will celebrate." you know it yourself(: it is not about thinking my birthday is big. it is about the friendship we had. someone told me,"good friends no need to contact much." is it true? weekly? bi-weekly? monthly? guess you did none of it! don't claim we are good friends if we are not. & now i know who is my real bestie. it makes me feel stupid to take the my "Assumed bestie" as real bestie in the past. ultimate disappointment! i begin to regret believing you being real to me when all these while you kept the way you think of me, to yourself! & you claim you treat me as bestie(: thanks for it. Enough of venting. i just felt a little sad. please pardon my post. i make sure next post onwards i will lessen all these. 0 comment[s] | back to top oh oh oh! this show is darnnnn niceeee!! 5 stars! 4 thumbs up!! ^^ it is really very nice i tell you. FULL OF SUSPENSE. The sound effect... oh man!! darnnn scaryyy! & LOUD! it gives you NO PREPARATION when the ghost comes out. man man man! you guys should watch it man!! today bestie , adeline & me went to watch this show! WOAH. i & bestie were like don't dare to see.. HAHA. guess bestie missed a few scary scenes. HAHA. for me..i put my eyes between fingers, so that it is not so naked for me.. HAHA! i really enjoyed the movie lots lots! around 2plus, kenneth came to join us @ jp. well..it is really a fruitful trip i should say(: we went around shopping! bestie at last bought sp's present.. haha! & is my lobang.. who says not nice,i boxthe person! HAHA! & yes i got my present from bestie too.. someone's one is more expensive than mine lo! TSk. *jealous* nah. it's ok luhh.. haha! anyway i quite like the one i tried. the first one with strips one. & with the black thingy? i think it is kinda nice though. someone.. I WANT NICE NICE JACKET!! i really craves Ed Hardy Boys' jacket man! but it is very much impossible to get it for my birthday or any occasion. which is like tarnished dreams. ): but it's okAYY.. i wonder who & how many people will give me personal gift. hmmm.. 0 comment[s] | back to topMY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!THIS COMING SATURDAY,20.06.09! oh man oh man! i am like wondering who remembers.. will it be much freezing than last year.. can't deny, i do feel kinda scared my birthday this year will not turn out well (*: i realllyyy hopee this year will be a nice one(: Things i want: # Dresses with sleeves (preferably) # CONTACT LENS!! (1.50) (those that can enlarge eye balls but coloured.14 diameter) # heelssss that have stable *stick* (no covered toes pleaseee) # nice & unique laptop bag (i think mine is 14.1?) # laptop cooler # eyeliner(*quickstroke* @ chameleon) # facial package(seems impossible..hmmm) # fat burner things # tattoos(black or dark colour pleaseee) # airbrush!!!!!! # hair extenzsions # dye hair # eye lash extension # threading # backpacks that SUIT ME!! # mirror screen protector for E71 # headset for E71(ear piece) # new & nice tooth brush =XxXx & UNIQUE THINGS THE NO-OOOs x soft toys x FOOD (i will kill you) up till now is all these(: all these i am stating are the varieties only.. so yea(: MAY MY 19th BIRTHDAY BE GREATTTT~! 0 comment[s] | back to topas promised, i will blog tonight(:the trainging was dragged to saturday morning 10.30am. so ya.. i went down to bugis to meet bestie & her girl-friends. they are none other than : # GUILING # JANE beginning i think it was really bored, but in the end it turns out the other way round. they are really nice people i should say.. i am glad that they laugh at the things i say.. because you know you know.. nowadays,humans are hard to please! even to make them smile or laugh, it is soooo tough! whenever i tell a joke, the typical people will give me that *sarcastic face* then i like everything 冷掉 Zzz even i myself also freeze. jokes i said were jokes i think was funny, & i laugh when people tell me. this shows i am more easily satisfied? HAHA. LOLS. shannon managed to buy her skinnies, shorts & top if i am not wrong. =x jane bought her high waist short(forced by guiling=x) dress , belts & more. & guiling bought NOTHING *laughs* haha! she is really funny. she bought the ice-cream, 3 scoops @ $3.. she was like darn excited. then came out it more reallyy small scoop.. then jane says she kena *corned*. HAHA. jane is going to chiong her tiramisu tonight.. good luck,girl! :D hopefully all her friends love it(: can success de la!!(((:  i am looking forward to tomorrow's movie with bestie, adeline & GCB(: we gonna watch "Drag me to hell"!! oh man! i wanna like watch it even before it is in threatreS! & i am going to watch it tomorrow! 超 HIGH !! i gonna be back to tell you guys how i rate the show(: oh man.. it is so late now.. *yawn* & i miss S33(: looking forward to SOS & service. i tell you! I AM MISSING CELL GROUP MEETINGS!! had been craving for it.. like so longgg DDD: i want cell group meetings. & another thing is BIBLE STUDY CLASSES. due to school,i skipped the past signed up classes. which is like Zzzz.. gonna start chionging. i miss hershey pie again. but today i held that temptation. how long can i hold on? 0 comment[s] | back to top suddenly i feel like putting up this picture(: this was when i went for Mingyao's wedding(: First time wearing dress. i know it is kinda low cut.. but at that age of mine, everything was fine. only until now, i start to feel awkward.. which i think should be another round..=x it is still my black hair(: very first time to really make over. but in the end didn't really come out well.. which is like.. Zzzzz. update more tonight(: 0 comment[s] | back to topIsn't this kinda cool? my cat actually catch the mouse in my computer! haha! XD darn funny i tell you. my cat's name is called 招财 (: a name given by my mother. heh! he really sleeps like a 招财猫 i tell you! click and view it! :D today i had been slacking at all. bored bored bored i tell you! i received like NO message except xuebin asking me for wishes =.= no one ask me out or whatever. so basically i went to sleep till around 5plus. reallyy nothing to do. then i woke up watch tv, eat & internet now. ya.. so today is like a waste of time home.. someone please take me out! :((( tomorrow i will be going for a training for tuition coordinator @ city hall @ 3.30pm.. hopefully i can really earn alot of money from it. i believe God will prosper me, just needa have faith & do it(: OH YES. i forgot to update last saturday's service's situation! i got to know a few friends.. like victoria..jazzarel..leo..han qin.. (*: victoria & jazzarel are from heart of God.. & han qin is a christian that seldom go church.. & he enjoyed how service! can see he is very open(: & to me he is quite shuai! XD HAHA! don't misunderstand hor. purely praising... XD ^^ i tell you the service was SIMPLY WONDERFUL!! many artistes were here man! artistes like :
i really enjoyed the service! Glad Ah Sheng & the rest also enjoyed too(: those who never turn up or rejected my invite, it is really something you never wanted to miss! (: i won't let my past memories with you destroy my relationship with Him. yes i still miss you. but like my bestie say, you are not worth my love. you wasn't there when i needed you. although i know you tried to do something to change in the past without telling me. although that time i had a boyfriend, & did not experience it, regret about it.. i will still not go back to you again.. 我很清楚的知道。。 你对于我已不是爱。 我不会再忍你摆布。。。 take care. no matterrrr how tempted i am, i will still not go back.. no matter how painful it it, He will heal me.. "is okayy,delph!" said myself. Labels: YOU 0 comment[s] | back to topwonderful day that i had,i should say(:i went to do charity work at vivo city called [[ Step Up]]. it means to step on the stepping machine? yeah(: & if you got step and is below 500 steps, you will get a notebook.. if you get 500 steps.you get something like stationary kit. if you get 1250steps, you will get a TEDDY BEAR(: & guess what? I GOTTEN 3 BEARS & 1 STATIONARY KIT! shocked? ^^ it is kind of a hard work i should say.. all these steps are to be done within 10minutes.. but after that you can still cont. if you want(: can you believe a 85kg girl can step like 1316 x 2= 2732steps? 1316 for one foot..so x2 (: & that is me! XD i should say i am proud of myself(: i never had such wonderful results in my life before.. & i am simply excited about it! :D LOOK!this are the peeps who went down for the charity(: they are none other thannnnn..... the hunks & babes of S33(: *applause*  Sp, eve,bryan, shannon,wilson & me.. still the same mighty us! HAHA!  guess what?!  we gotten ourselves 10 bears, 5 stationary kits & 1 notebook!  isn't is GREAT??!?! :DDDDD 1 bear = at least 1250 steps x 2 =2500 steps we have 10 that means 2500 x 10 = 25,000steps.. 1 stationary kit = at least 1000 steps x 2 =2000 steps we have 5 that means 2000steps x5 =10,000 steps 1 notebook = less than 500 count as 499 (: so as 5 people in lowest estimation total : we stepped at least : 25,000+10,000+499 = 35,499! *clapppps* in average one person is 7,100!! BRAVO RESULTS! :DDD wanna take a look at me during the step up? all candids!  jiayou baobei!(: hao lei o!! jiu ming!! my timing!! HOHO XD! fast lea!^^ 脚酸了！！ purfect me! ^^an 85kg girl had did her best! (: beginning i felt i was super *under-dress* for this sporty event lo. almost did not participate.. then get to know that wearing slippers also can.. so i went.. haha! i went for 4 rounds. which means 40 mins! ROARS! haha! 累死了！(: but a very fulfilling one XD 不要看不起肥妹哦！^^ after that we went down to plaze singapura to fellowship @ LJS (: baobei treated me 3pcs chicken double fries! thanks!(: & on the way, baobei, bestie & me were camwhoring about.. haha! you all shall see(: let the photos speak of the love we have <3>  bestie & me <3>  iloveher!  3 single eye lids girls(:  three babes with teddy..  still loving it!  my little house..  what are you dreamning of,my princess s?  baobei with the *zao pai* pose!  i wanna be a "Sea princess" said baobei!  i just want to be a human!said shannon  the 3 ultimate babes  charles angels with one extra! HAA! jkjk =x  bestie & me loves  us again! getting exciteddd?  do rae me.  the do re me sisters  baobei& bestie  the double Bs 0 comment[s] | back to topNOW IS 5.45AM ! & iam finally done with my blogskin liao(: How do you think of it? PLEASE COMMENT(: i spent all my time doing this blogskin.. throughout the night. & i am still like an owl(: isn't it like coool? haha! XD i had always been sleeping like 12am-2pm.. but today i guess even until the dawn breaks, i will still be energised. guess i gonna start preparing to go for PM later. i am excited for SOS this evening! HOHO! noww... let the pictures speak..  The 3 single eye lids. The 3 fair ladies.The love story of shannon and delphine begins...  delphine kissed shannon... feeling loved,shannon gave delphine a kiss too<3  thinking somebody may be looking,they turned back and smile. ACT BLUR =X  because they cannot kiss anymore,they EMO :D 0 comment[s] | back to topi am back.. (:wow.. it had been like 21 days that i left this blog unattended. so here i am. reviving it.. i had been lazy to on my laptop. =X so.. let's start.. it will all be what i can recall ok?(: bear with me uh(: i am thinking of changing my blogskin.. hmmm(: should i? GIVE ME YOUR COMMENTS :D looking from my last post.. i thank God for holding me through (: i was really on the verge of leaving.. but, my brain and heart is cling-ed to Him. these sentence just somehow floats in my mind.. "It is Him i love, the one i seek, it is not Him who disappoint me." i feel that He was speaking to me, "Stay on, my precious. All these are meant to test how much you love Me. you have your own wrongs, repent and seek after Me, for I will refresh your mind, heart & soul. Cling on to Me.. Lean not on your own understanding." and yes i made a choice. i've chose to cling on to the things i believe in. i clearly know in my heart who i love, what i want and the answer is Him (: so in the end i went back. i knew i was wrong to not account. i knew i was wrong to rely on others on that problem.. i knew i had to have a change of mindset. yes i will (: and it is still in process (: i know i will and i can. now i am looking for jobs.. many places don't accept my request because i can only work till 5 july ): ya.. and now i am waiting for pending work.. i pray that the person will call back by tomorrow.. please please!! ^^ i doing blogskin. update more later.. 0 comment[s] | back to topThis marks the end. 0 comment[s] | back to topMind over matters If you don't mind,it don't matters! how true can this quote be? i guess i have been minded with many things. and some things and people are just simply redundant,perhaps. everything mattered because i cared. isn't it? if people are just like *strangers*or *enemies*, why would i give a damn to even what they think? but still, sometimes, it is simply ME being so persistent. and now everything seems useless. in MIA (: 0 comment[s] | back to topYou say: 'It's impossible'God says: All things are possible You say: 'I'm too tired' God says: I will give you rest You say: 'Nobody really loves me' God says: I love you You say: 'I can't go on' God says: My grace is sufficient You say: 'I can't figure things out' God says: I will direct your steps You say: 'I can't do it' God says: You can do all things You say: 'I'm not able' God says: I am able You say: 'It's not worth it' God says: It will be worth it You say: 'I can't forgive myself' God says: I Forgive you You say: 'I can't manage' God says: I will supply all your needs You say: 'I'm afraid' God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated' God says: Cast all your cares on ME You say: 'I'm not smart enough' God says: I give you wisdom You say: 'I feel all alone' God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
Do you know what i am trying to bring across? Who else can be of such great love? He lifts people up when people are down, colours people's life when it is black & white, turns the frown upside down, give you the thnigs you yearn for, give you rest when you are tire out, accompanies you when you are alone, forgive you from the tiniest-->largest sin you commited, sets you free with truth, & agape (:
Even if you search the whole world, you can never find a love comaprable to His. 0 comment[s] | back to top1 DON'T SLEEP WITH A WATCH on your wrist.Watches can emit a certain level of radioactivity. Though small, but if you wear your watch to bed for a long time, it might have adverse effects on your health. 2 DON'T SLEEP WITH Your BRA on. Scientists in America have discovered those that wear bras for more than 12 hours have a higher risk of getting breast cancer. So go to bed without them. 3 DON'T SLEEP near a PHONE Putting the phone beside your bed or anywhere near you is not encouraged. Though some of us will use phones as alarm clocks, but please put the phone as far as possible from you.Scientists have proved that electrical items including mobile phones and television sets emit magnetic waves when used. These waves can cause disruptions to our nervous system. Therefore if you need to put your mobile phone near you, switch it off first. 4 DON'T SLEEP WITH MAKE-UP ON People who sleep with make-up on might have skin problems in the long run. Sleeping with make-up on will cause the skin to have difficulty in breathing and problem in perspiring. You will also need a much longer time to go into deep sleep. Lastly..... 5 DON'T SLEEP WITH somebody else WIFE or HUSBAND You may never wake up again. This is simply so joke. hahas, but it is better to take precautions :D 0 comment[s] | back to top"for the success you ever had, you really did it. by denying the talent and gift you have, is denying the people who support you." I told myself this : Not being the best french horn in the world is not that important. It is when i lose the confidence of blowing my french horn that is the scariest. I want to be rich. very rich.. extremely rich... everytime i think about how my friends, my family and me struggling with money.. i tell myself i want to be rich. of course in the right and proper way. i hope everytime i see my loved ones have financial problems, just one word and i can help them out. that is my dream, my hope & my wish. all these days. i cannot deny i felt kinda lonely. during the days i am unwell, my phone can't be used. i am simply unwell to blog. nowadays my mum is out to work for a few days. my father is also working too. and when i go home.. the house is so chilly. no one seems to be there.. i always wait for my phone to have calls and sms-es. but at times i am disappointed without fail. i sit down on my bed.. wondering who is thinking about what i am doing.. couldn't guess who did.. i told myself..at least the Almighty do. i smiled and teared. not wanting to further sympathise myself. the only way is to pray and sleep. only then my heart can be put to rest. worries upon worries. burdens upon burdens. how many "are you ok?" do i want to hear? i don't want to be said as immature ; emotional ; spiritual no good ; things like that.. although many did not sound out how they felt about me. i can feel. it is not wrong of course. just that i am trying hard to change myself, to change the way people think of me. people say.. the most important thing is how you see yourself. but i guess it isn't very effective though. i may think myself as beautiful. but many may not. perhaps even in return they may think i am being proud? BHB? sorry to be so negative right now. but being through all these, i have already done my best. seeing my loved ones going one by one.. who can deny i have out in alot of effort? i need strength. which does not purely comes from Him. i need it from people around me. people, you know what you mean to me. by the way i treat you, the enthusiasm i have. s-t-r-e-n-g-t-h , do you know how to give me these strength? (': its ok. i will go back home and pray up later. will be fine after that. its gonna be a brand new day tomorrow. yeah.i know.. change my words,change my life. i will. despite all these negative thinkings, i still believe God has greater things for me to accomplish. take care guys. To bestie: cheer up ok? (: sometimes when things just seem caving in, think of me.. think of God.. i will never let go of you.. never look down on you.. support you always.. just a word or call from you, i will put down everything on hand and listen to you. this is how important you are. let the love of the right friends VS the wrongs of the wrong friends. you are kept in my daily prayer. you are more than what you think you can do. i believe, always been. ai qing hen qi guai. wo ai de que he wo cha sheng er guo. er wo bu ai de que zai wo sheng bian zhuan rao zhe. nan dao wo yong yuan dou zhi neng kan zhe zi ji ai de ren de bei ying ma? 0 comment[s] | back to topOne by one..one by one.... Someone just text me to : Do not disturb. i have been very burden about certain things.. ya..burden..worried..upset.. but guess its not time for emotions. we gotta crack our mind to stand up for the things we love, the things we guard for, the things we believed in. i have to be tactful of what i write in this post because of my emotions and direct-ness. and also how others may interpret it. i have write and editted this post for more than 10 times. cooling myself with dramas. -laughs- it's gonna ok. i gotta believe. everyone will make it. things will change. it will never be the same. instead of standing here and get emo. i am starting to crack my mind. though i know my focus should be studies. i will. but not in the expense of losing the family. i hope "family" is not just a name. like the red t-shirts we had. "Not just a name" i will pray & seek Him for guidance. it can never go that way. never. i will not allow. no way! >=B do anyone knows why some car races need a helper to the driver? that is because the race is not like F1, long and smooth road.. there may be sand..slides or more danger, the driver needs to be focused. without a helper who knows well of the road, how do the driver win the race? read between the lines (: for all these msn hack-in and tagboard spam. June admitted it is her who do it. however, i think it is not that simple. i believe that man is guilty for it. though i do not know why is he helping him. i come give a damn now. June, thanks for all your doings. i am utterly disappointed. I never once looked down on you when i saw you doing those things. taking care of you when you were drunk. standing up for you in school when i heard someone talk bad about you. and this is what i get(: thanks so much. but don worry. it wun affect me much. because from now on, you are never even in a corner of my eye. it is not about unforgiveness. but it is over. i have forgiven. and i want to forget. i made a choice. it is all over between us. & stop taking my truthfulness for granted. thanks. suddenly these words ring my mind: We need to start solving the toughest problem. Although it may take alot of time, but we still have to carry hope for the future. It is the trials and tribulations that we become grown up. do you agree? 0 comment[s] | back to topi am back at last.to my homely blog of mine. *wipe dust away* i had been sicked for the past one week. And over here i want to thank a few people (: 1) Jesus By His love, grace and mercy, I am healed. My medicine can only last me for 5 days, but after 5 days, my throat is still swollen. And i really feel very uneasy, and miraculously by God, I am healed by 80% already. It is all done by : -Visualize -Confess -Believe I had been scolding and casting Satan out of my body. Getting angry with Satan. and keep on speaking the promises of God. God is Jehovah Rapha. HE will heal me, perhaps not directly, but through people around me and slowly His healing unfolds. 2) Ming hua He was the one who brought me to doctor at marine parade there. Really thank God that he was in my life. He had always been the one who helps me in terms of need. No amount of words can express how much gratitude i have towards you. Thanks so much. (: If not for you, i won't even start recovering. 3) My mother and father Thank them for being around with me, supporting me.. although there is alot of nags, but i felt the warmth,the care. thanks so much. it brought me to a question, "If my parents are not around already,how?" guess i will really cry and become very empty out of a sudden. i am used to hearing,"WINNNNNNNNIEEEEE!" smiles on their faces always makes my day. having their agreement and permission sets me free. i love them and there is just so much that i want to do for them. I really love love them. I want to give them a good life. I want to show them i am never the same. actually,i was never the same. seriously. i want to work hard in both my studies and work to show my gratitude. yes,i will. 4) Mingyao (my CGL) Thanks for his care and concern (: I don't know why,but always i have a strong urge to be there to support him. whether as a member-leader or a friend. but this had been in me, the moment I made a decision to commit. The reason why i commit is not being forced or "brain-washed". It is the presence,i do not know how to explain. When i see people speaking unnice things of him, i got provoked. In the inside,there is so much i want to stand up for him,i did la. HAHA! :D When i hear things from him, it always makes me think, look for solutions and really try things out. Although many a times, i really hope that i will be praised by him personally, i know he is not a very expressive person. so,yeah. i believe and trust in the friendship we have. he can see it and know it even if he don't say it. i always believe in one thing. I will not go against God anointed leaders. never. instead,i will go all out to support and help. I know he had been stressed with things.. sadly i can't really do anything to help him. anyway i am not mature enough to say or comment luhh. i just listen,think and try to resolve. Mingyao had been really caring. He sent me home from east coast that day when i was sick. spoke to parents. disciplining me.. i cannot deny, i do not detest discipleships. i want to grow. spiritually strongly. and i want to become a better person. God speaks to me through him. almost all the time. I thank him for all that he had done. thanks alot,mingyao. Labels: Thank you session 0 comment[s] | back to top |