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updating about my life.
i had a tiff with polarguin. it is really irritating at times. i think there are alot of things that are not unleashed. i think i just need to unleash! forget it. now i also no mood for it already. i am very cooped up. 守着只有自己懂的秘密好难受! 明明不是我要的，却变成全部都是我的错。 也许是我自找的吧？为什么要承担这么大的事情？ 头没这么大就别带这么大的帽子啊！ 我受不了我自己。 很烦耶！ 大家，请不要告诉我秘密。 我的罪恶感没有比任何人少！ 我也很愧疚，很难过。 我毕竟也是人啊！ 有我失落的时候啊！ 与其在那里逼问我。不如来安慰我！ 你们只想到自己的感受。。 那我呢？我答应别人不能说了。 要我怎么办？ 你以为我过得很快活吗？ 我也很烦，很压力！ will you all feel for me and stand in my shoes to think? haiz! i am sick of all these. i am so worried that i may just leave ! i am worried,stressed up,upset,guilty and many many mixed feelings. why me? i have high expectations of myself. but i lied to mingyao. i feel so condemned. so so condemned. i did not want to. i tried to reveal to you.but on the spot,the person denied, how do i explain and reveal? maybe i am just useless. maybe i did not set my priorities right. like you say,i am not helping the person, i am teaching the person to lie and be the accomplice of the whole incident. ya,i am this kind of people. be it then. i am imperfect. not even close to good. i am just an ordinary girl who wants to keep my promise. who wants to lie to their leader whom he/she loves and respects alot? perhaps only ME? 解释就是掩饰，对吗？ this time i am hit. no matter how surroundings people try to stumble me with their hurting words, i can get out of it with the Word of God. but how do i get out of it when it is a annointed person of God? how do i forgive myself to lie to the God annointed person? 我试着去原谅我自己， 但我就是放不过我自己. i feel so low spirit. sighh. to the girl who asked me. "sorry that i never tell yoo.is not i don't treat yoo like a cg. is that i am told to keep a secret. i seek your understanding." i need time to cool down my life ((': Labels: how do i forgive myself? 0 comment[s] | back to top |