B E . S T R O N G

i am immature?
Yes i may be.
but what do you know?
who cares what i need?
who knows what i need?
or should i say,do you even know?
*sighhs*
why must i keep on tolerating to become a shadow?
a shadow to almost everyone.
people always say it is my thinking.
then what leads to my thinking?
lack of love.
lack of care.
what is my love language?
do you guys even know?
*PHYSICAL TOUCH*
AFFECTION!
do i have it?
please. to think really carefully,
i think i am the one who is putting most of the efforts
in loving people. and i need love!
my love bank is 0 now!
i don't dare to put deposit inside anymore.
do you even understand?
no. you only scolds.
say i am immature.
ask when will i ever be mature.
what's more?
i know you care, but this is not the reaction i want or need.
you only know how to ask WHY WHY WHY.
and why can't you just be sensitive to feel it and prompt?
you know i felt really bad mood and you still ask so much.
can you just be sensitive.
no matter how man i portrays,i am still a girl.
a very ordinary girl who needs love and care.
a innocent girl that wants to be pampered and noticed.
a simple girl who just wants to lay in someone's arms
and rest in warmth.
i had been trying to hope that someone will discover all these
and provide all these for me.
i know it is not the right time to be in a relationship,
like mingyao said,"Tracking on water is every tiring."
am i selfish? maybe i am but i did not discover.
i just need it. i need someone to satisfy my needs.
although like precious said,"there is no free lunch."
i feel like dropping dead there.
going to lock my blog.
it doesn't matter whether who comes anyway,
i just need peace.
lock myself in my world,
and heal myself.
i want to pray with my God, someone who does not forsake
or disappoint me. The only man i can totally trust. (':

There are some friends who'll always know you for you, for the times when you're crying beneath the biggest grin in the whole wide world. Brave fronts don't always work. But they love you despite all that anyway.
that's shannon perhaps.

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