B E . S T R O N G

BEAWARE! i am going to have a super long post today.

hmmm.
Firstly, carebear's father was announced dead on
Thursday morning.
I went down to find him after school.

On the first day,
the sorrows were not very strong.
But i could see tears in his mother's eyes.
I went over to hug her.
I went down feeling like a stranger.
And his 3 aunts asked carebear,"你的女朋友啊?"
And i am there saying,"No luhh,I am his friend."
Then the 3 aunts started praising me.
1st aunt,"YOu are so cute.."
2nd aunt,"You got the sweet sweet look."
3rd aunt,"Your hairstyle suits you alot."
I was there -blushing-. LOL!
Then i say,"No luhh.-smiles-"
And they actually went to tell carebear
to break up with his girlfriend and go after me..
*I can't say I am unhappy upon hearing it.
I was actually happy in the deep side of me.
BUT I know clearly it is impossible.
He will never become C and ya..
To think,it is so ridiculous of me to be jealous
when his girlfriend keeps on sms-ing him.
根本就是天经地义的事..
Yet i got so unhappy about it.
I saw him looking at her messages and not replying.
It leads me to think: did he treat me the same way?
I actually 暗爽about it. sick right? TSK.
But I doubt he will break with his coming to 4 yr gf
for me one too. HAHA. which is good luhh.
even though i may not feel good.
but I know he and me have no future,
so, i need to learn not to be selfish.*

On the second day,
I went down again.
then one of his aunty(not the aunts),
keep saying,"她很好好，很有心." to carebear.
Then the stupid carebear keep looking at me
and say,"啊..听到了没有！讲你很好啊！"
Then I look away from him and smile to aunty.
LOL. Many people come and go that day.
No one left without asking,"你的女朋友啊？"
And i wonder how many times i said "no" already.
-laughs-
I can feel that the people there loves me. (:

On the third day,
I did not go, i went for service. (:
The ice cream fiesta was good!
And there was a "Ice cream design competition".
We won the Number Two place.
It is under a theme,"Love"
And we came up with this..

isn't it cool?
let me explain!
This is actually a face.
ya a face that represents the 7-up guy?
ya..because God love the number 7.
And we had a cross at the heart
which means we must have the Love of God.
And i said,"If you love,you need to express it out."
It is actually the word "LOVE" formed by Pocky.
HAHA. cool ya! (:
Then we shuttle-bus-ed to expo for service 2.
Don't wish to be transferred there due to many factors?
but, ya..where my leader goes, i follow.
Everything by faith ba (:
And i got slapped by someone because i said,"san pat po."
=,= but at the split second i said,"Forgive and forget."
and i chilled. she apologized to me aftermath also.
I called up him to check things out.
He told me he just cried.
Told me quite somethings. -cheer-

On the forth day,
I went down in the early morning.
I did not tell carebear luhh.
Just in case he may be sleeping..
He has had alot of sleepless night.
and i wish he can sleep more..
so,yea. was there and i saw his mother and him.
His eyes was kinda red?
Guess he had cried before i came ba..
But did not say anything,
he said he does not want to cry in front of girls.
*i was kinda upset. i could feel the sorrows.
For once,i felt sorrows & tears are contagious.*
So yea. did alot of stuffs.
I was actually the one to look after the money(白金),
wrote the names and kept the money.
*don't we are like a family? LOL.*
and i get free access to his house.
pass me keys,ask me keep?
LOL. anytime i can go up.
I felt like part of them luhh.
Was there till around evening.
then i went to meet up with precious to pass her MP4.
Then cabbed home together in the end.

On fifth day,
this is the day when
the truth unfolds,
the emotions unleashed.
it was the day for cemetery.
this time round,i clearly see the tears dropping
while he eats.
i cried along.
i felt the feeling of,trying to be strong,
to show others he is ok,
to don't let people upset and worried,
but deep inside, hoping someone could
take away the agony in his soul
that his beloved father is going to leave forever.
my tears flow uncontrollably.
during the time of chanting,
his mother suddenly ran over and cried badly.
this is a touching scene too.
she was crying,"Ah hui ah,Ah hui..."
The aunts went to hug her and stop her.
this added to our sorrows too.
she suddenly like fainted.
and carebear and i rush over.
we got her a chair to rest.
the scene was really traumatizing.
and i was wronged as his girlfriend by the monk!
*i do not wish to proceed with it.*
went with them to guang ming shan.
went through with them..
it was an experience i should say..
ya..but again,
me and carebear is impossible.
unless he is a C.
if not. no talk. ya.
i stand by His principles.

-write more tomorrow. still have more.
stay tuned!-

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