B E . S T R O N G

"for the success you ever had,
you really did it.
by denying the talent and gift you have,
is denying the people who support you."

I told myself this :
Not being the best french horn in the world
is not that important.
It is when i lose the confidence of blowing my french horn
that is the scariest.

I want to be rich.
very rich..
extremely rich...
everytime i think about how my friends,
my family and me struggling with money..
i tell myself i want to be rich.
of course in the right and proper way.
i hope everytime i see my loved ones have
financial problems,
just one word and i can help them out.
that is my dream,
my hope
& my wish.

all these days.
i cannot deny i felt kinda lonely.
during the days i am unwell,
my phone can't be used.
i am simply unwell to blog.
nowadays my mum is out to work for a few days.
my father is also working too.
and when i go home..
the house is so chilly.
no one seems to be there..
i always wait for my phone to have calls and sms-es.
but at times i am disappointed without fail.
i sit down on my bed..
wondering who is thinking about what i am doing..
couldn't guess who did..
i told myself..at least the Almighty do.
i smiled and teared.
not wanting to further sympathise myself.
the only way is to pray and sleep.
only then my heart can be put to rest.
worries upon worries.
burdens upon burdens.
how many "are you ok?" do i want to hear?
i don't want to be said as
immature ;
emotional ;
spiritual no good ;
things like that..
although many did not sound out how they felt about me.
i can feel.
it is not wrong of course.
just that i am trying hard to change myself,
to change the way people think of me.
people say..
the most important thing is how you see yourself.
but i guess it isn't very effective though.
i may think myself as beautiful.
but many may not.
perhaps even in return they may
think i am being proud? BHB?
sorry to be so negative right now.
but being through all these,
i have already done my best.
seeing my loved ones going one by one..
who can deny i have out in alot of effort?
i need strength.
which does not purely comes from Him.
i need it from people around me.
people, you know what you mean to me.
by the way i treat you,
the enthusiasm i have.
s-t-r-e-n-g-t-h ,
do you know how to give me these strength?
(': its ok.
i will go back home and pray up later.
will be fine after that.
its gonna be a brand new day tomorrow.
yeah.i know..
change my words,change my life.
i will.
despite all these negative thinkings,
i still believe God has greater things for me to accomplish.
take care guys.

To bestie:
cheer up ok? (:
sometimes when things just seem caving in,
think of me..
think of God..
i will never let go of you..
never look down on you..
support you always..
just a word or call from you,
i will put down everything on hand and listen to you.
this is how important you are.
let the love of the right friends
VS
the wrongs of the wrong friends.
you are kept in my daily prayer.
you are more than what you think you can do.
i believe, always been.

ai qing hen qi guai.

wo ai de que he wo cha sheng er guo.

er wo bu ai de que zai wo sheng bian zhuan rao zhe.

nan dao wo yong yuan dou zhi neng kan zhe

zi ji ai de ren de bei ying ma?

T A K E N . B Y . S J J

T A K E N . B Y . F Q T

T H E . V E R D I C T

I L O V E Y O U

A . P A R T . O F . M Y . L I F E

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