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L I F E |  The meaning of this word, BESTIE? they will support you no matter what comes may. they don't watch the time when they are listening to your problems. they assure you that their hearts are there with you when they aren't physically there. they tell you the truth of everything. they depend on you trusting you are their friend. they are dependable. they bring you out for breather when they know you are getting out of breath. they send porridge to your house knowing you are sick. they send you medicine if you have none when you are sick. they visit you when you are sick. they call you straightaway when you tell them you are sad. they rush down to where you are when you are lost in the midnight. they called up people to go help you out when they can't. they teach you when you are wrong but never condemns you. they show you the meaning of friends. they shower you with care even when you aren't sad or whatsoever. they enjoy your presence. they remember you whenever they want to do something fun. they hug you when they see you cry. they lend you their shoulder for you to cry. they pat your head telling you is ok and that they are with you. they try their best to meet your needs. they believe in you no matter what slander comes up. they defend for you when people talks bad about you. they express their love through actions and words. they tell you how they feel. they will enter into your circle where you made for them to have protection. they find you dependable and long to be with you forever. they include you in as many events as possible. they help you with your work when you need help. they proudly presents you to their friends. they openly say that you are their *level of friends* (bestie,gd friend or so) they accept you for who you are and if it isn't good, they help you change. they run the walk with you. they hold your hands and run together. they do not leave you behind on your own to suffer all. # and i have found a VERY VERY VERY friend that suits ALL the above points. & that is no other than SHANNON LIM PEI SHAN!      SHE IS MY GREATEST ADDICTION <3 i will be her protector, i will be her shelter, i will give her the best teddy hug, i will shower her with love and care, i will defend for her whoever dares to speak ill of her, i will tell the world, SHE IS MY BESTIE, i will shine like stars because that is what she hopes, i will make her shine better than me, i will be there for her if she needs me, i will watch stars with her, i will cry with her when she is sad, i will wipe her tears and pats her head when she break down, i will lend her my chubby and comfortable shoulder to rest on, i will let her fall asleep on my thights, i will see her through all the tough times, i will be the star that protects the heart from being hurt! 0 comment[s] | back to topSometimes going through too much aren't as good as what many think.Though it benefits in the way I can sayang the sad souls' hearts ; analyzing how they feel and help them find the root feeling and cause, but it can sometimes make you protect yourself so much that you forgot how to love. However, for me, it is a different case. I can still go around loving everyone, allowing my heart to roam about the words people speaks. That means after getting hurt so much, I can still accept guys in my life. Whereas many people always work according to what they see people react when the same situation arises. For example : Problem : My boyfriend who i loved alot, cheat on my feelings. Majority reaction : Very upset. Break down. Sometimes even result in taking revenge on them. Attempting suicide to show how your emotional and mental needs are not met and it hurts so much. Cannot stand up from the fall because it is supposed to be that way since I am so hurt. Result : Sometimes you may not be as sad as you actually are. But because of the fact that you want to show that you actually love your boyfriend alot, so you also react like what majority do. This is to double confirm yourself that you love your boyfriend alot, that's why you will react this way. & at the mean time let others also see how serious the situation is. In fact : Actually what people needed is empathy. It is not sympathy. Is like a type of comfort that they hope they can get after this that had happened. A type of console that they hope to get to agree that that are hurt, sayang-ing them However, the friends most of the time neglected or ignored their feelings when they did not appear to be very upset. That's why it resulted that they will result in such behaviors. And for worse cases, they took these action that they took as a real deep agony is their hearts. These is even a much more severe case than those who really am upset. Because those who really am upset, knows when they are alright. Those who took up the reaction do not know these sadness will stop. They tends to dwell in the matter more than those people who are truly sad. Most of the situations in relationships(not married yet,doesn't include being raped and extreme sacrifices made) are able to be resolved when you found the right one and when the right amount of empathy is given. It is a little complicated here and there which i do not know how to elaborate into words. It is a type of deep felt thing which black and white aren't easy to define. It is something like the following steps : If, friends & love ones are sensitive enough to provide the empathy, attention, love and care on the problem and not belittle it. Then, they will not need to resort to such actions to get it. Thereafter, it won't be that difficult for them to come out of the situation Which means, It is easier for them to move on. Results in : Stronger friendship, healthier heart and soul. Most importantly, MORE LIFE IS SAVED! What do you think? (: give me your comments (: 0 comment[s] | back to topMy criteria of my boyfriend :**very important** # taller than me # love me truly and wholeheartedly # know why he loves me # willing to change for me # willing to do anything for me # his world priority other than God, is me. # don't make any promise to me unless he is sure he can fulfill. ( i rather not listen to promises than to feel the broken promise ) # believe in me NO MATTER what happens # able to hold me when i fall # only have me in his eyes in the sense of love # gentleman # accept me for who i am # defend me when rumors arise # hold my hand # proud of having me as his gf # stand up for me when people scold me or anyone look down on me # be real and truthful to me regardless it is painful or not. ( i don't want to break any % of trust including 0.000000000000001% ) # able to support me financially ( depends on age and situation, of course. ) # have confidence in this relationship Sorry if my criteria is so high. i am out to look for a husband-criteria of boyfriend. Not those normal guys i can find on orchard road, together then break again. hope i get all of you's understanding (: p.s SUPER RANDOM. p.s.p.s i don't know why, just have the feeling to do so~ 0 comment[s] | back to topI seemed to be missing someone now.Awwww~ wondering if he thinks so too. Awwww~ Don't sound very gooood uh? Urhmmmm. someone is sure smiling at what i just wrote. haas. :D yesterday went out with L, i thought well, it is quite nice eh? i do hope L is happy hanging out with me. WAHAHA XD i feel that L is kinda accepting. he accepts me for who i am. it's kinda rare to me. he is also quite kind to me la!AHAHAHA! he actually treat me to mac though he doesn't really have money le. isn't it sweet? (: Awww.. *faints* i am having hell loads of projects pouring over me. the time is so near like thursday,friday and saturday? i am like crying already. my eyes are super dry making extra discomfort. to make things worse, i am sick now. Flu, cough, fever, sore throat & headache. sigh! why like that? *though you don't like housefly, i still have to tell you i am someone who needs many many of love, care, concern and attention* *somehow or rather, i hope he will come and look for me* 0 comment[s] | back to topHamster eating popcorn on the piano
Hamster eating popcorn on the pianoPosted using ShareThis 0 comment[s] | back to top how great it is when i see this (: proud to be his friend! ILOVEKOKKEONG!<3 it had been a long time we talked. we had a nice & heart-heart talk. & it really feels great to talk to him (: I will update you guys more. internet is so inconsistent! 0 comment[s] | back to topI am finally back from my grandfather's funeral @ Muar. ----------------------------------------------, ---------------------------. -------------------,- --------------------.. -----------------------------------------. all deleted! just like my negativity! (: i miss cg! That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient one. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back & see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success. 0 comment[s] | back to top explain NO more! 0 comment[s] | back to topI have missed my own cg's cgm!ZOMG. how i wish i could be there! but ya..never mind. i have been brooding over it for a few days though! hahs! wonder if anyone notice i am not there. LOL. school have been not bad.. i gotten someone to teach me POOL! hahs! and yeah.. i want to learn pool~ so that i can play with friends! :D i miss many people! # bestie # my lady # baobei # cg the alas completed puzzle is yet to be given back to the owner. 0 comment[s] | back to top 5 projects in 2weeks time. ><'' stressed! but i know i will be able to pull through it. with Him & my hardwork. today i met up with my crazy ah ma-ade (: she was sick, so i met up with her & bring my dog together for a walk(: spoke to her. & found out that there is a guy who drives her to school everyday, buy for her breakfast in the morning. so nice and sweet right? :D aftermath, i walked her home as she is having tuition @ 7.30pm. i think gonna use this to fellowship with her every evening. get her to pray together and really build a strong friendship (: i won't be able to attend any cgm from mon-fri nights. it was a pact made to my mother, to save myself from losing my sat nights services. i seek understanding from everyone, i believe i will be given(: my schedule this week : mon : 9.30pm - 5pm schooling tue : 2pm - 5pm schooling wed : 9.30pm - 5pm schooling thur : 9.30pm - 5pm schooling fri : 2pm - 5pm schooling sat : 9.30pm - 5pm schooling sun : should be studying (see how) (welcome to book me) :: i am NOT and will not be an abject failure. We all want to fall in love. why? because that experience makes us feel completely alive. where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered & we are flying into heavens. it may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. but that doesn't diminish its value. because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives. Don't you think so? 0 comment[s] | back to topI am taking this lonnggg boringg break to blogg now (:first day of school, begins quite alrights. hopefully my drive for studying keeps going. even if i am tempted, i will still come! hmm! & i decided to open a blogshop too. now looking for suppliers. & also doing my blogskin! any lobangs,tell me k!? HAHA! To Sandy : Cheer up ehs! (: kenneth and i also same uh! (: second time sure can! i believe! *Champions are not those who never fail but those who never give up!* & i believe it will be much much better results. don't sad okayys?(: LOVES YOU, MYLADY! <3 0 comment[s] | back to topa sudden felt of lost-ness.i don't know what to do. sitting at upper boon keng road there, block 11, under the block at the mailbox there. as the rain hits the floor, i began to look up to the sky, wondering how long is a drip of rain counting from sky. at least 15km long? hmmm.. for sure yea? dumb me. :D *update more again* *have the urge to pray now* The water is getting harder to thread, The sea is my heart. Now,where is the coastal? 0 comment[s] | back to topI am back from meeting mingyao & adeline (:GREATT. Although it is just sitting at tpy macdonalds, I think it is quite productive (: I feel that the talk was kind of inspiring. and it inspired me to work on myself(: i have a good time with adeline and talking to her (: PTL. some pictures from my birthday.  my cg. my birthday card by BAOBEI. my birthday present from the cg (((:so cute right? HAHA!  The cake i love the most! :Dcredits to my ah ma adeline! (:  SEE how excited i am :DD posing at my precious's camera! posing at my ladyship's camera(:0 comment[s] | back to top"it is the sincerity that counts, i hear of people saying they want to do “难道爸爸的肩膀不够你靠吗？” 0 comment[s] | back to topI will be going for Survivor campfrom 22 june - 25 june(: take care my bestie as you are in malaysia! i gonna miss you likeeeeeeeeeeee nobody business luhh! miss me!(: LOVES. 0 comment[s] | back to topHappy Birthday to Winnie! {& that is me} Happy Birthday to Delphine! {& that is still me} :D I had a very surprising birthday this year, by my beloved cell group. S33 (: From the birthday bread --> birthday cake --> birthday card --> presents! They are surprises beyond surprises. They make my day turns out well. & the only ones. other than minghua, verlin & cindy. Thanks all of you!<3> the one person i waited for to sms me, forgotten it. but, yeah. it's okayys(: ever since the day i decided to choose Him over him. Last year's today, you brought me to paragon which i have never been. to Cold Storage to declare to your godmother "she is my girlfriend." you showed me around to your ex-colleagues. you brought me to eat pepper lunch which i have never eaten. you held me tight. you brought me to great world city which was the first time i were there. i was roaming about at Skin Couture shop. & saying i am so in love with the clothes you say it is not nice because it is too loud. But you still say,"go in & see lo" we went in and i was so high. it was the first time i enter Skin Couture shop. even though i heard about it before. you say,"choose 1 lo,i buy for you." i smiled & rejected. i say the size don't have my size, but actually, i did not want you to spend so much on me, though i really hope i own one. you did not prepare any present, so you ask me to choose. being someone who is so in love with you, i walked around hoping to ifnd something that is cheap, but there is none. you took me to Face Shop & as me to choose anything i need. but i got it all..like mascaras & rest. is remembered you were in your black T & "ns" pants, i was with the black & white checkered shirt & white skinnies. i tied my hair into half remembering you saying you love it that way. with my favourite eye-liner with my purple contact lens. also the way you love me to be. you took me to watch movie & my parents sent us home. we were so happy. or perhaps it was only me. 2009, 20.06.90, today, you were not by my side anymore. it had been 1 year. i struggle it through to now. i will not turn back to my ways anymore. perhaps even if you say,"come back to me again." i will not go back. no matter how tempted i will be. no matter how sad i will be. whether i will regret or not. I guess it's too late. but guess the day you speak this way will never come. & i hope it doesn't come. or i will have to go through all the pain again & alone. Enough of letting my memories float(: i heard about my bestie calling up by fsmb good friends. to my very surprise, all of them pushed it away(: sorry i can't give a thing to excuses like, "oh.. i am veryyyy busy. i don't think will celebrate." you know it yourself(: it is not about thinking my birthday is big. it is about the friendship we had. someone told me,"good friends no need to contact much." is it true? weekly? bi-weekly? monthly? guess you did none of it! don't claim we are good friends if we are not. & now i know who is my real bestie. it makes me feel stupid to take the my "Assumed bestie" as real bestie in the past. ultimate disappointment! i begin to regret believing you being real to me when all these while you kept the way you think of me, to yourself! & you claim you treat me as bestie(: thanks for it. Enough of venting. i just felt a little sad. please pardon my post. i make sure next post onwards i will lessen all these. 0 comment[s] | back to top oh oh oh! this show is darnnnn niceeee!! 5 stars! 4 thumbs up!! ^^ it is really very nice i tell you. FULL OF SUSPENSE. The sound effect... oh man!! darnnn scaryyy! & LOUD! it gives you NO PREPARATION when the ghost comes out. man man man! you guys should watch it man!! today bestie , adeline & me went to watch this show! WOAH. i & bestie were like don't dare to see.. HAHA. guess bestie missed a few scary scenes. HAHA. for me..i put my eyes between fingers, so that it is not so naked for me.. HAHA! i really enjoyed the movie lots lots! around 2plus, kenneth came to join us @ jp. well..it is really a fruitful trip i should say(: we went around shopping! bestie at last bought sp's present.. haha! & is my lobang.. who says not nice,i boxthe person! HAHA! & yes i got my present from bestie too.. someone's one is more expensive than mine lo! TSk. *jealous* nah. it's ok luhh.. haha! anyway i quite like the one i tried. the first one with strips one. & with the black thingy? i think it is kinda nice though. someone.. I WANT NICE NICE JACKET!! i really craves Ed Hardy Boys' jacket man! but it is very much impossible to get it for my birthday or any occasion. which is like tarnished dreams. ): but it's okAYY.. i wonder who & how many people will give me personal gift. hmmm.. 0 comment[s] | back to topMY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!THIS COMING SATURDAY,20.06.09! oh man oh man! i am like wondering who remembers.. will it be much freezing than last year.. can't deny, i do feel kinda scared my birthday this year will not turn out well (*: i realllyyy hopee this year will be a nice one(: Things i want: # Dresses with sleeves (preferably) # CONTACT LENS!! (1.50) (those that can enlarge eye balls but coloured.14 diameter) # heelssss that have stable *stick* (no covered toes pleaseee) # nice & unique laptop bag (i think mine is 14.1?) # laptop cooler # eyeliner(*quickstroke* @ chameleon) # facial package(seems impossible..hmmm) # fat burner things # tattoos(black or dark colour pleaseee) # airbrush!!!!!! # hair extenzsions # dye hair # eye lash extension # threading # backpacks that SUIT ME!! # mirror screen protector for E71 # headset for E71(ear piece) # new & nice tooth brush =XxXx & UNIQUE THINGS THE NO-OOOs x soft toys x FOOD (i will kill you) up till now is all these(: all these i am stating are the varieties only.. so yea(: MAY MY 19th BIRTHDAY BE GREATTTT~! 0 comment[s] | back to topas promised, i will blog tonight(:the trainging was dragged to saturday morning 10.30am. so ya.. i went down to bugis to meet bestie & her girl-friends. they are none other than : # GUILING # JANE beginning i think it was really bored, but in the end it turns out the other way round. they are really nice people i should say.. i am glad that they laugh at the things i say.. because you know you know.. nowadays,humans are hard to please! even to make them smile or laugh, it is soooo tough! whenever i tell a joke, the typical people will give me that *sarcastic face* then i like everything 冷掉 Zzz even i myself also freeze. jokes i said were jokes i think was funny, & i laugh when people tell me. this shows i am more easily satisfied? HAHA. LOLS. shannon managed to buy her skinnies, shorts & top if i am not wrong. =x jane bought her high waist short(forced by guiling=x) dress , belts & more. & guiling bought NOTHING *laughs* haha! she is really funny. she bought the ice-cream, 3 scoops @ $3.. she was like darn excited. then came out it more reallyy small scoop.. then jane says she kena *corned*. HAHA. jane is going to chiong her tiramisu tonight.. good luck,girl! :D hopefully all her friends love it(: can success de la!!(((:  i am looking forward to tomorrow's movie with bestie, adeline & GCB(: we gonna watch "Drag me to hell"!! oh man! i wanna like watch it even before it is in threatreS! & i am going to watch it tomorrow! 超 HIGH !! i gonna be back to tell you guys how i rate the show(: oh man.. it is so late now.. *yawn* & i miss S33(: looking forward to SOS & service. i tell you! I AM MISSING CELL GROUP MEETINGS!! had been craving for it.. like so longgg DDD: i want cell group meetings. & another thing is BIBLE STUDY CLASSES. due to school,i skipped the past signed up classes. which is like Zzzz.. gonna start chionging. i miss hershey pie again. but today i held that temptation. how long can i hold on? 0 comment[s] | back to top suddenly i feel like putting up this picture(: this was when i went for Mingyao's wedding(: First time wearing dress. i know it is kinda low cut.. but at that age of mine, everything was fine. only until now, i start to feel awkward.. which i think should be another round..=x it is still my black hair(: very first time to really make over. but in the end didn't really come out well.. which is like.. Zzzzz. update more tonight(: 0 comment[s] | back to topIsn't this kinda cool? my cat actually catch the mouse in my computer! haha! XD darn funny i tell you. my cat's name is called 招财 (: a name given by my mother. heh! he really sleeps like a 招财猫 i tell you! click and view it! :D today i had been slacking at all. bored bored bored i tell you! i received like NO message except xuebin asking me for wishes =.= no one ask me out or whatever. so basically i went to sleep till around 5plus. reallyy nothing to do. then i woke up watch tv, eat & internet now. ya.. so today is like a waste of time home.. someone please take me out! :((( tomorrow i will be going for a training for tuition coordinator @ city hall @ 3.30pm.. hopefully i can really earn alot of money from it. i believe God will prosper me, just needa have faith & do it(: OH YES. i forgot to update last saturday's service's situation! i got to know a few friends.. like victoria..jazzarel..leo..han qin.. (*: victoria & jazzarel are from heart of God.. & han qin is a christian that seldom go church.. & he enjoyed how service! can see he is very open(: & to me he is quite shuai! XD HAHA! don't misunderstand hor. purely praising... XD ^^ i tell you the service was SIMPLY WONDERFUL!! many artistes were here man! artistes like :
i really enjoyed the service! Glad Ah Sheng & the rest also enjoyed too(: those who never turn up or rejected my invite, it is really something you never wanted to miss! (: i won't let my past memories with you destroy my relationship with Him. yes i still miss you. but like my bestie say, you are not worth my love. you wasn't there when i needed you. although i know you tried to do something to change in the past without telling me. although that time i had a boyfriend, & did not experience it, regret about it.. i will still not go back to you again.. 我很清楚的知道。。 你对于我已不是爱。 我不会再忍你摆布。。。 take care. no matterrrr how tempted i am, i will still not go back.. no matter how painful it it, He will heal me.. "is okayy,delph!" said myself. Labels: YOU 0 comment[s] | back to topwonderful day that i had,i should say(:i went to do charity work at vivo city called [[ Step Up]]. it means to step on the stepping machine? yeah(: & if you got step and is below 500 steps, you will get a notebook.. if you get 500 steps.you get something like stationary kit. if you get 1250steps, you will get a TEDDY BEAR(: & guess what? I GOTTEN 3 BEARS & 1 STATIONARY KIT! shocked? ^^ it is kind of a hard work i should say.. all these steps are to be done within 10minutes.. but after that you can still cont. if you want(: can you believe a 85kg girl can step like 1316 x 2= 2732steps? 1316 for one foot..so x2 (: & that is me! XD i should say i am proud of myself(: i never had such wonderful results in my life before.. & i am simply excited about it! :D LOOK!this are the peeps who went down for the charity(: they are none other thannnnn..... the hunks & babes of S33(: *applause*  Sp, eve,bryan, shannon,wilson & me.. still the same mighty us! HAHA!  guess what?!  we gotten ourselves 10 bears, 5 stationary kits & 1 notebook!  isn't is GREAT??!?! :DDDDD 1 bear = at least 1250 steps x 2 =2500 steps we have 10 that means 2500 x 10 = 25,000steps.. 1 stationary kit = at least 1000 steps x 2 =2000 steps we have 5 that means 2000steps x5 =10,000 steps 1 notebook = less than 500 count as 499 (: so as 5 people in lowest estimation total : we stepped at least : 25,000+10,000+499 = 35,499! *clapppps* in average one person is 7,100!! BRAVO RESULTS! :DDD wanna take a look at me during the step up? all candids!  jiayou baobei!(: hao lei o!! jiu ming!! my timing!! HOHO XD! fast lea!^^ 脚酸了！！ purfect me! ^^an 85kg girl had did her best! (: beginning i felt i was super *under-dress* for this sporty event lo. almost did not participate.. then get to know that wearing slippers also can.. so i went.. haha! i went for 4 rounds. which means 40 mins! ROARS! haha! 累死了！(: but a very fulfilling one XD 不要看不起肥妹哦！^^ after that we went down to plaze singapura to fellowship @ LJS (: baobei treated me 3pcs chicken double fries! thanks!(: & on the way, baobei, bestie & me were camwhoring about.. haha! you all shall see(: let the photos speak of the love we have <3>  bestie & me <3>  iloveher!  3 single eye lids girls(:  three babes with teddy..  still loving it!  my little house..  what are you dreamning of,my princess s?  baobei with the *zao pai* pose!  i wanna be a "Sea princess" said baobei!  i just want to be a human!said shannon  the 3 ultimate babes  charles angels with one extra! HAA! jkjk =x  bestie & me loves  us again! getting exciteddd?  do rae me.  the do re me sisters  baobei& bestie  the double Bs 0 comment[s] | back to topNOW IS 5.45AM ! & iam finally done with my blogskin liao(: How do you think of it? PLEASE COMMENT(: i spent all my time doing this blogskin.. throughout the night. & i am still like an owl(: isn't it like coool? haha! XD i had always been sleeping like 12am-2pm.. but today i guess even until the dawn breaks, i will still be energised. guess i gonna start preparing to go for PM later. i am excited for SOS this evening! HOHO! noww... let the pictures speak..  The 3 single eye lids. The 3 fair ladies.The love story of shannon and delphine begins...  delphine kissed shannon... feeling loved,shannon gave delphine a kiss too<3  thinking somebody may be looking,they turned back and smile. ACT BLUR =X  because they cannot kiss anymore,they EMO :D 0 comment[s] | back to topi am back.. (:wow.. it had been like 21 days that i left this blog unattended. so here i am. reviving it.. i had been lazy to on my laptop. =X so.. let's start.. it will all be what i can recall ok?(: bear with me uh(: i am thinking of changing my blogskin.. hmmm(: should i? GIVE ME YOUR COMMENTS :D looking from my last post.. i thank God for holding me through (: i was really on the verge of leaving.. but, my brain and heart is cling-ed to Him. these sentence just somehow floats in my mind.. "It is Him i love, the one i seek, it is not Him who disappoint me." i feel that He was speaking to me, "Stay on, my precious. All these are meant to test how much you love Me. you have your own wrongs, repent and seek after Me, for I will refresh your mind, heart & soul. Cling on to Me.. Lean not on your own understanding." and yes i made a choice. i've chose to cling on to the things i believe in. i clearly know in my heart who i love, what i want and the answer is Him (: so in the end i went back. i knew i was wrong to not account. i knew i was wrong to rely on others on that problem.. i knew i had to have a change of mindset. yes i will (: and it is still in process (: i know i will and i can. now i am looking for jobs.. many places don't accept my request because i can only work till 5 july ): ya.. and now i am waiting for pending work.. i pray that the person will call back by tomorrow.. please please!! ^^ i doing blogskin. update more later.. 0 comment[s] | back to top |